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2008-06-02T10:20:00.000-07:00

why the fuck not?

Kyle says:
hey there
Kyle says:
*big hug into a cuddle* lol
LeeAnn says:
*huggles*
Kyle says:
how was your day?
LeeAnn says:
it was alright
LeeAnn says:
I opened at work and then went to my dad's party
LeeAnn says:
hows about yours?
Kyle says:
cool
Kyle says:
went to the cards game, and then got an appointment for tomorrow after my PC with my manager, and i made a phone sale
LeeAnn says:
awesome
Kyle says:
yup
Kyle says:
you should have hung out with me, maybe my awesome day-ness would have rubbed off on you
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
haha sorry
Kyle says:
so when do we get to chill again?
LeeAnn says:
I dunno
LeeAnn says:
maybe sometime next week?
Kyle says:
as in like 8 days from now or do you mean this week? lol
Kyle says:
just clearifying
LeeAnn says:
haha right
LeeAnn says:
well, I'm off thursday, but that's it for this week
Kyle says:
well im up for chillin if you can stand hanging out with me that often, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
I would love to hang out with you
LeeAnn says:
thursday?
Kyle says:
yeah
Kyle says:
you'd love to? i feel special, lol
LeeAnn says:
you should
LeeAnn says:
my ear hurts
Kyle says:
aww why it hurt?
LeeAnn says:
I got water in it
Kyle says:
awww poor dear
LeeAnn says:
uh huh T_T
LeeAnn says:
I can't get it out
Kyle says:
Q-tip?
LeeAnn says:
I tried
Kyle says:
then you just gotta wait it out babe
LeeAnn says:
*sniff sniff*
LeeAnn says:
you should kiss it and make it all better
Kyle says:
*kisses ear gently*
Kyle says:
i thought i wasnt allowed to kiss you? lol
LeeAnn says:
*sniff sniff*
LeeAnn says:
I HURT!
LeeAnn says:
T_T
Kyle says:
haha, so i can kiss whatever hurts you and thats it?
LeeAnn says:
. . . I dunno!
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
ok
Kyle says:
i'll just kiss whatever you say hurts from now on
Kyle says:
so be careful about what you say hurts, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
b/c you have a great body, so i'd have no problem kissing whatever, so its up to you to know what you want kissed, lol
LeeAnn says:
O_O
Kyle says:
HAHAHA
LeeAnn says:
I do not have a great body. Far from it actually. I just work hard on hiding it
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
well i really like it, lol
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
LeeAnn says:
right
LeeAnn says:
I'll have to be careful if I ever get hit in the chest or something around you
Kyle says:
yup
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
or the butt
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
like hell
LeeAnn says:
I absolutely despise my butt
LeeAnn says:
out of all the places on my body, if I could change one thing, that'd probably the one place that I'd change
Kyle says:
thats one of my favorite parts of you, lol
LeeAnn says:
O_o
LeeAnn says:
that's awkward
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
you know im an ass man, i told you this
LeeAnn says:
I don't understand it
LeeAnn says:
some of them are flabby
LeeAnn says:
and some are pimply
LeeAnn says:
and who knows what else they have
LeeAnn says:
butts are ugly
Kyle says:
lol, its the good ones that i like
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
so flabby pimply butts don't turn you on?
Kyle says:
discribe flabby, lol
LeeAnn says:
. . . um
LeeAnn says:
I dunno, fatty rolly butts?
Kyle says:
well butts dont have fat rolls on them
Kyle says:
like usually i like the bigger ones, lol
Kyle says:
round is very good
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
alright. so you like pimply butts?
Kyle says:
like zits or what you mean? lol
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
Kyle says:
no, not really
Kyle says:
but zits go away, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
sometimes they leave scars you know
Kyle says:
yeah
Kyle says:
what does your butt have zits on it?
LeeAnn says:
O_o
Kyle says:
is that a yes or a no? lol
Kyle says:
hello?
LeeAnn says:
I vanished
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
well do you have zits on your butt? if you dont give me an answer i'll have to assume you do
LeeAnn says:
._<
LeeAnn says:
>_<
LeeAnn says:
why would you assume that T_T
Kyle says:
b/c if you didnt you wouldnt be so defensive about it
LeeAnn says:
or i could just not like talking about my but
Kyle says:
or i could be right, lol
LeeAnn says:
you could be right? meaning you think something?
Kyle says:
there must be some reason you dont like your butt, and its like perfect size and shape, so what else could it be
LeeAnn says:
*glare*
LeeAnn says:
it's far from the perfect size and perfect shape btw
Kyle says:
not for me
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
haha fine
LeeAnn says:
whatever
Kyle says:
want me to give it a kiss so you feel better about it? lol
LeeAnn says:
no
Kyle says:
hahaha
LeeAnn says:
you need to stay away from it
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
but its so inticing, lol
LeeAnn says:
. . .
Kyle says:
its a very nice butt, it calls to me, lol
LeeAnn says:
right
Kyle says:
so do you have zits on your butt? dont try to make me forget
Kyle says:
i never forget booty, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
what if I said no?
Kyle says:
then i'd kinda believe you, lol
LeeAnn says:
kinda?
Kyle says:
well you've put it off so much that i feel you're hiding something
LeeAnn says:
maybe I have a huge chunk of my butt taken out by a razorblade from a fight I was in when i was little
Kyle says:
do you?
LeeAnn says:
no
LeeAnn says:
but it's a possibility
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
so, out of morbid curiousity, what if I said yes?
Kyle says:
i dunno, i dont get to play with your butt so it doesnt bother me
Kyle says:
and like i said, they go away
LeeAnn says:
acne scars! >_<
Kyle says:
you do have acne scars on your butt dont you
LeeAnn says:
what if your girlfriend had a pimply ass? O_O what would you do?
LeeAnn says:
and this is an innocent talk about butts which does not imply anything about my own, btw I just don't understand
Kyle says:
you just dont understand what?
LeeAnn says:
the butt thing
Kyle says:
neither do i, it just happens, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
noy a concious decision i made
Kyle says:
*not
LeeAnn says:
uh huh suure
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
so you didn't answer my question
Kyle says:
what one?
LeeAnn says:
I'm curious now
LeeAnn says:
what would you do if your girlfriend had a pimply ass?
Kyle says:
... about?
Kyle says:
screw her like normal, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
still my hot gf
LeeAnn says:
you assume your girlfriend is going to be hot?
Kyle says:
yeah, b/c i would have to think a girl's hot to date her, lol'
LeeAnn says:
that's kinda shallow
Kyle says:
you mean you'll date a guy that you have no physical attraction to?
LeeAnn says:
i kinda did
LeeAnn says:
two or three times XD
Kyle says:
oh my, lol
Kyle says:
well most people have to be attracted to the person they date
Kyle says:
not just me
LeeAnn says:
hmm okay
LeeAnn says:
I'll give you that
LeeAnn says:
I'm not hot though
LeeAnn says:
cute at best
LeeAnn says:
so it works
LeeAnn says:

LeeAnn says:
that I've had boyfriends that I don't think are hot
Kyle says:
i think you're both
LeeAnn says:
pfft
Kyle says:
hey, dont tell me who i think is hot, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha alrigh
LeeAnn says:
alright*
LeeAnn says:
I guess I can do that
Kyle says:
and i LOVE cute, just as good as hot to me
LeeAnn says:
haha really?
LeeAnn says:
that's new
Kyle says:
ok, lol
LeeAnn says:
so you wouldn't care if your girlfriend had a pimply ass?
LeeAnn says:
???
LeeAnn says:
where'd you go?
Kyle says:
oh sorry, watchin shrek

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LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
no not really
LeeAnn says:
really?
LeeAnn says:
honestly?
LeeAnn says:
I always thought it was a huge turn-off
Kyle says:
if it's like covered completely in huge zits then yeah, but some small ones, aren't too bad
LeeAnn says:
hmm
LeeAnn says:
scars too?
Kyle says:
yeah, scars aren't bad
LeeAnn says:
weird
Kyle says:
better than zits, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha alright
Kyle says:
i'd prefer a non-zit ass, but if the girl's really cool and hot, it probably wouldn't be enough to turn me off
LeeAnn says:
hmmm ok
Kyle says:
so truth time, you got/had zits on your butt?
LeeAnn says:
. . .
Kyle says:
that's a yes
LeeAnn says:
ug
LeeAnn says:
urg*
LeeAnn says:
fine, I don't really have zits
LeeAnn says:
but I used to when I was younger and I didn't take care of them, so I have scars
Kyle says:
that's not too bad
LeeAnn says:
alright? I've never told anyone but colin
LeeAnn says:
so if you tell anyone I'll kill you *glare*
Kyle says:
hahaha, i wont, dont worry
Kyle says:
and i knew you did since you brought it up by the way
LeeAnn says:
T_T
LeeAnn says:
I figured you woulda caught on
Kyle says:
haha, i'm pretty quick at stuff like that
LeeAnn says:
curiosity got the better of me . . .I normally never bring it up
Kyle says:
as soon as you brought up scarring i knew
LeeAnn says:
i figured . . . it's not a normal response to that
Kyle says:
nope
Kyle says:
*huggles* dont worry about it
Kyle says:
and scars go away eventually just so you know
LeeAnn says:
when I'm fifty
Kyle says:
lol, no, since yours were so early, they'll be gone in a few years probably
Kyle says:
and there are scar reducing creams
Kyle says:
if it bugs you that much
LeeAnn says:
they don't work very well
Kyle says:
sometimes they do
LeeAnn says:
I just hide my butt at all costs
LeeAnn says:
I'll live
Kyle says:
hahaha
Kyle says:
well i like your booty
Kyle says:
still very shapely and nice
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
well thank you
LeeAnn says:
I still hate it
LeeAnn says:
a lot
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
well you have your opinion and i have mine
LeeAnn says:
true
Kyle says:
if it REALLY bugs you that much, you can have lazer treatment on it and it'll really reduce them
LeeAnn says:
I've actually thought about that
LeeAnn says:
but it's expensive and I could never tell my parents, so its out haha
Kyle says:
yeah
LeeAnn says:
but in all honesty, they aren't THAT bad, or so I've been told . . .
Kyle says:
but you know you're almost 20, you're kinda a grown up, so you can get it and they'll not know, lol
Kyle says:
i'm sure they're not
LeeAnn says:
I would have to pay for it
Kyle says:
yup
LeeAnn says:
that would suck
Kyle says:
i'm getting lazer hair removal on my back and shoulders, i'll have to take care of that
LeeAnn says:
really?
LeeAnn says:
why?
LeeAnn says:
you could just wax it haha
Kyle says:
b/c i'm a hairy beast, and waxing/shaving it for the rest of my life would suck, lol
Kyle says:
and would end up being too expensive
LeeAnn says:
that harry?
Kyle says:
i'm getting more tattoos on my back, that's why
LeeAnn says:
hairy*
Kyle says:
not THAT hairy, but hairy
LeeAnn says:
oh, okay
LeeAnn says:
all guys are hairy unfortunatly
Kyle says:
there's a fuz, lol
Kyle says:
not all of us actually
LeeAnn says:
all right, but a lot of you
Kyle says:
i dont know that many other really hairdy dudes
LeeAnn says:
and none of you shave your legs
LeeAnn says:
or under your arms
Kyle says:
*hairy
LeeAnn says:
or your chests
Kyle says:
i trim under my arms every once in a while, lol
LeeAnn says:
>_>
LeeAnn says:
nasty
Kyle says:
well it does get really long if you dont
LeeAnn says:
If I have to shave them, I think you should have to, too
Kyle says:
haha, nah
LeeAnn says:
I also have to shave my leg
Kyle says:
it's ok for dudes to me moderately hairy
LeeAnn says:
pfft
Kyle says:
i have to shave my face.... but i dont usually, lol
LeeAnn says:
I'm not a big hair fan
Kyle says:
hairy=manly, so it's ok for us
LeeAnn says:
eh
LeeAnn says:
I disagree
Kyle says:
yeah most girls (especially our age) aren't
Kyle says:
more mature women dont seem to mind too much though
LeeAnn says:
eh
LeeAnn says:
my mom still shaves her legs
Kyle says:
NO, i mean about US being hairy
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
not you girls
LeeAnn says:
oh
LeeAnn says:
right
Kyle says:
haha
Kyle says:
it seems the more mature a woman is, the less they care about hair
Kyle says:
to a certain point, lol
LeeAnn says:
eh
LeeAnn says:
maybe
LeeAnn says:
I dunno
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
I'm personaly not a fan
LeeAnn says:

LeeAnn says:
I'm all for men shaving
Kyle says:
well fine then
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
welcome
Kyle says:
you like the womanesque skinny male models huh?
LeeAnn says:
no
LeeAnn says:
I like there to be something to hug generally
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
so like me but hairless?
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
Kyle says:
hahaha
LeeAnn says:
I like to be smaller than the guy
Kyle says:
good, that's not too common these days, lol
LeeAnn says:
?
LeeAnn says:
what do you mean?
LeeAnn says:
as far as I have heard, most girls like to be smaller than the guy
Kyle says:
all the girls i like are into skinny ass, no muscle, hairless guys that weigh near the same as them
LeeAnn says:
no . . .
LeeAnn says:
most of us are in love with six packs
Kyle says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
trust me on tat one
LeeAnn says:
that*
Kyle says:
not from what i've seen you all date
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
there aren't as many guys with six packs as opposed to skinny guys
Kyle says:
haha
Kyle says:
so go for the guys with 6-packs under SOME chub, like me
Kyle says:
i still have a 6 pack, just not as visible
LeeAnn says:
haha everyone has a six pack
LeeAnn says:
http://content2.myyearbook.com/zenhex/images/quiz21/102922/102922_res1.jpg see, there are just not as many guys built like this as opposed to skinny guys
Kyle says:
no it has to be devolped, it doesn't start to bulge out independantly until it's at a higher level
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
LeeAnn says:
it's sad
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
I wish that muscle like that came easily
LeeAnn says:
then I'd be muscular too!
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
i'm planning on being close to that by the end of hte summer
Kyle says:
since my metabolism is so fast, all i have to do is eat a little less, and eat better foods, and then just do SOME physical activity, and i'll slim down pretty quick
Kyle says:
just gotta find that willpower, lol
LeeAnn says:
I'm so jealous
Kyle says:
lol, i get that a lot
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
LeeAnn says:
you have no idea
Kyle says:
haha
Kyle says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i just heard one of the funniest sayings, lol
LeeAnn says:
?
Kyle says:
"garcia couldn't train a monkey, to shit... monkey shit.... if he had 2 years..... and a truck load of ex-lax, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
nice
LeeAnn says:
hey, I'm going to take a shower
LeeAnn says:
brb
Kyle says:
ooo naked
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
ok
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
back
LeeAnn says:
. . . but you is gone
Kyle says:
sorry, screen saver came on, lol
Kyle says:
so how was your naked wet time? haha
LeeAnn says:
it was amazing
Kyle says:
.... good answer, lol
LeeAnn says:
thank you
LeeAnn says:
I try
Kyle says:
haha
Kyle says:
naughty
LeeAnn says:
who me?
LeeAnn says:
never
Kyle says:
so are you going to ask your mom if she wants to help me out by making an appointment with me?
Kyle says:
your dad can be there too, moms just tend to want to help more, so ask her, lol
LeeAnn says:
I will tomarrow
LeeAnn says:
okay?
Kyle says:
mm hmm
Kyle says:
thanks
LeeAnn says:
np
Kyle says:
i need appointments bad, lol
Kyle says:
i'm pretty much starting over on clients
LeeAnn says:
aw, I'm sorry
LeeAnn says:
why?
Kyle says:
b/c i used all my referances from my last summers clients, and didn't ask for referances on the last couple b/c i'd be gone
Kyle says:
so now i dont even h ave friends and family to start off with like i did last year
LeeAnn says:
aw I'm sorry
LeeAnn says:
I'll talk to the rents
LeeAnn says:
. . . and I think I'll get dressed now
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
you're still naked?
Kyle says:
that's both crazy hot and awesome, lol
LeeAnn says:
I was in a tow
LeeAnn says:
towel*
LeeAnn says:
O_o
LeeAnn says:
how so?
Kyle says:
same response
Kyle says:
haha
Kyle says:
b/c you're pretty much naked, you naked is good, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
it's not like I was in front of you
Kyle says:
true, that would be insanely cool/hot, but you were still naked, and i knew it, lol
LeeAnn says:
O_O
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
LeeAnn says:
you worry me at times
LeeAnn says:
but okay
Kyle says:
haha, i get that a lot
LeeAnn says:
I'm sure you do
Kyle says:
i cant help it, i'm a guy, horny kinda comes with taht
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
do you talk to anna like you talk to me?
LeeAnn says:
;P
Kyle says:
not soo much, lol
LeeAnn says:
lol
Kyle says:
i try to not be as openly pig headed with her yet, lol
Kyle says:
when i talk to her though i dont really think about sex though... so i dunno
Kyle says:
i think more about cuddling
Kyle says:
hey brb
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
okay
Kyle says:
back
Kyle says:
wow that mouthwash is strong, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
so lemme get this straight
LeeAnn says:
when you talk to anna you think about cuddling, but when you talk to me you think about sex (I'm assuming from our conversations).
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
sex and cuddling, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
you're weird
Kyle says:
uhhh, YEAH
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
LeeAnn says:
don't believe me?
Kyle says:
huh?
Kyle says:
dont believe you about what?
Kyle says:
i know i'm weird, lol
Kyle says:
and Anna doesn't seem very sexually oriented, so i dont think she'd like to talk about it, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha okay
LeeAnn says:
but I seem sexually oriented? XD
Kyle says:
secretly yes, lol
Kyle says:

LeeAnn says:
and no, she probably wouldn't like to talk about it
LeeAnn says:
secretly?
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
haha, yup
Kyle says:
you act like you really dont like it, but you kinda do
LeeAnn says:
. . .
LeeAnn says:
right
Kyle says:
mm hmm lol
Kyle says:
you just dont fully realize it yet
Kyle says:
if you truly didn't like it, you wouldn't talk about it with me
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
haha, dont you ahte it when i'm right?
Kyle says:
*hate
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
you've only had sex with one guy, so you haven't done too much, and dont have much experience with it, you know you kinda like it, and wonder what else you could do with it, lol. so you let me talk about it
LeeAnn says:
O_o
Kyle says:
and you're starting to like it, lol
LeeAnn says:
. . . how do you know I've only had sex with one guy?
LeeAnn says:
and that I don't have a lot of experience? who knows, maybe I've done it hundreds of times
Kyle says:
.... have you?
LeeAnn says:
I don't think I should tell you
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
you may have had it "a lot" with him, but since you probably took a while after dating him to actually get to that point, it's probably not too many times
Kyle says:
and even then, 1 guy doesn't really count as much experience
Kyle says:
and it doesn't sound like you've tried very much
LeeAnn says:
>_>
LeeAnn says:
ouch
Kyle says:
what?
Kyle says:
none of that's bad
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
*pout*
LeeAnn says:
uh huh suuure
Kyle says:
*hug* much love dear
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
Kyle says:
*snuggle*
LeeAnn says:
btw, I hadn't done it a lot with him
Kyle says:
i kn ow
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
just so I don't sound like a sex addict
LeeAnn says:

LeeAnn says:
I hate you
Kyle says:
no you dont, you love me
Kyle says:
i can't help it if i can read people well
LeeAnn says:
pfft
LeeAnn says:
well, how are you doing in the experience area there? tried a lot of things?
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
i'm gonna have to pleade the 5th on that one hahaha
LeeAnn says:
ooooh no you don't
Kyle says:
i dont think you're ready for that much sex talk
LeeAnn says:
*glare*
Kyle says:
haha, fine, as long as you dont tell Anna i'm a sex addict or anything
Kyle says:
b/c i'm not
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
would I do that?
Kyle says:
.... it's a possibility, lol
LeeAnn says:
ouch
LeeAnn says:
ye of little faith
Kyle says:
haha
Kyle says:
proof that i do really l ike her is that i'd give up sex for her if she didn't want to have it... as long as i got SOME release, lol
Kyle says:
alright... you can ask more specific questions, i guess i'll answer them
LeeAnn says:
awww
LeeAnn says:
cute
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
I won't make you answer any questions
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
it's fine, i just didn't know if you wanted to hear all of it, lol
Kyle says:
i dont mind
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
you make it sound so bad
Kyle says:
not really
Kyle says:
i just dont want you to freak and be like "oh he did what with who?" lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
I doubt you'd freak me out
Kyle says:
ok
LeeAnn says:
I doubt you'd surprise me, either
Kyle says:
shoot
LeeAnn says:
I don't know what to ask . . .
Kyle says:
wait, does that mean you think i'm a man whore? lol
LeeAnn says:
haha no
Kyle says:
ok
LeeAnn says:
it means I've heard a lot
Kyle says:
oh ok
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
ok, think of a question then
LeeAnn says:
. . .
LeeAnn says:
I dunno
Kyle says:
numbers?
Kyle says:
(tryin to help ya, lol)
LeeAnn says:
numbers?
LeeAnn says:
oh
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
sorry, it's late and I'm slow
LeeAnn says:
how many then?
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
how many i've had sex with?
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
Kyle says:
hold on lemme double check my count, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
10 i think, might be forgetting one
LeeAnn says:
wow, okay. How old were you your first time then?
Kyle says:
16
LeeAnn says:
oooh
LeeAnn says:
alright, i'm outta questions
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
hahahaha, wow you're not very creative when it comes to sex questions
LeeAnn says:
sorry?
LeeAnn says:
what am I supposed to ask?
Kyle says:
i dunno, the questions i would ask you i already know the answers too
Kyle says:
or at least a range, lol
LeeAnn says:
O_o
LeeAnn says:
well then, anything else you would like to know?
Kyle says:
you never really told me your favorite positions, lol
LeeAnn says:
well,that's a difficult question . . .
Kyle says:
how so/
LeeAnn says:
My favorite so far is probably from behind, but I hate my butt so much, it's hard for me to actually get there
Kyle says:
sweet, that's my favorite, lol
Kyle says:
i didn't see that one coming
LeeAnn says:
what did you expect me to say?
LeeAnn says:
I know it's your favorite you told me
Kyle says:
i dunno, just not doggy
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
yes i did, haha
Kyle says:
well, it's like one of my 3 favorites
LeeAnn says:
three?
Kyle says:
yup
Kyle says:
... maybe 4
LeeAnn says:
wow
LeeAnn says:
that many huh?
Kyle says:
yeah, i guess, lol
Kyle says:
i know a lot of positions alright, dont judge me, lol
Kyle says:
i never hear any complaints from teh girls
LeeAnn says:
alright
LeeAnn says:
if you say so
Kyle says:
yup
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
so what ones have you tried?
LeeAnn says:
um, I'm not sure what they're all called
LeeAnn says:
so I couldn't tell you
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
then jsut discribe
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
um, missionary, behind, one leg up, on top
LeeAnn says:
I can't think of the others . . .
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
those are some good ones
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
LeeAnn says:
I agree
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
still haven't had the best one yet though
Kyle says:
at least for the girl
Kyle says:
or really the 2 best
LeeAnn says:
what are they?
Kyle says:
not telling, lol
LeeAnn says:
oh come on
Kyle says:
nope
LeeAnn says:
please/
LeeAnn says:
?
Kyle says:
i dont want other guys being as good as me in bed, lol
LeeAnn says:
. . .
Kyle says:
that'd be aiding my competition, lol
LeeAnn says:
*pout*
LeeAnn says:
pwease?
Kyle says:
awww no pouting,
LeeAnn says:
*pout pout pout*
Kyle says:
nope, sorry
Kyle says:
keeping my skills to myself, lol
LeeAnn says:
dont make me hook up the webcam and really pout for you
Kyle says:
nope
Kyle says:
sorry
LeeAnn says:
why not???
Kyle says:
it's just for me to know, and the girls i sleep with, lol
Kyle says:
so sorry
LeeAnn says:
I hate you
Kyle says:
no you dont
LeeAnn says:
yes I do
LeeAnn says:
I wanna know T_T
Kyle says:
no you dont
LeeAnn says:
you're being mean
Kyle says:
i'm sorry babe, you'll find out eventually
LeeAnn says:
uh huh I could find out now
Kyle says:
i'm not the only guy on the planet that knows them
LeeAnn says:
. . .
Kyle says:
how could you find out now? lol
LeeAnn says:
you could tell me
Kyle says:
nope, sorry
Kyle says:
and its hard to tell anyway
LeeAnn says:
aw, what if I told you something that would surprise you?
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
... sex related? lol
LeeAnn says:
yes
Kyle says:
maybe. i could tell you some of it
LeeAnn says:
?
LeeAnn says:
what does that mean?
Kyle says:
i'll tell you half of the stuff that happens, lol
LeeAnn says:
. . .
LeeAnn says:
that's now fair
LeeAnn says:
not*
Kyle says:
yes it is
LeeAnn says:
nuh uh
Kyle says:
if your surprise is really good i'll tell you all of it
LeeAnn says:
. . . I dunno if I wanna tell you now
Kyle says:
yes you do, b/c you wanna know some good positions, lol
LeeAnn says:
*glare*
Kyle says:
hahaha
LeeAnn says:
you don't seem to wanna know my secret, thogh
LeeAnn says:
though*
Kyle says:
yes i do
LeeAnn says:
so maybe I shoudl keep it to myself
LeeAnn says:
should*
Kyle says:
i just want to keep some of my sex skills to myself, i think thats understandable
LeeAnn says:
. . .
Kyle says:
i dont want the guys you're with to get better b/c you show them my stuff, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
why does that bother you?
Kyle says:
b/c i like being good at sex
LeeAnn says:
haha uh huh
Kyle says:
its a very good quality to have, lol
LeeAnn says:
very important
Kyle says:
tell me your secret and i'll tell you stuff
LeeAnn says:
fine
Kyle says:
well?
LeeAnn says:
I was just going to say that I'm actually really kinky.
Kyle says:
ooo like what?
LeeAnn says:
I don't think I want to tell you all of my secret since you won't tell me all of yours
Kyle says:
lol, yours would be things that only you like, mine are things that all girls like, not the same
Kyle says:
and thats not enough to get more positions, maybe 1 of them
LeeAnn says:
I won't tell any other girls
Kyle says:
its the guys i dont want finding out, lol
LeeAnn says:
pfft
Kyle says:
i'll give you 1, then you gotta tell me all the kinky stuff you like to get more
LeeAnn says:
. . . fine
Kyle says:
alright, this ones pretty simple, its just spooning. it hits your clit and G spot every time better than doggy, also easy to kiss your neck and play with your boobs
LeeAnn says:
hmm
LeeAnn says:
ok
Kyle says:
ok, kinky sex time, what do you like?
LeeAnn says:
alright
LeeAnn says:
first of all, I love handcuffs and blindfolds
Kyle says:
nice
LeeAnn says:
uh huh
LeeAnn says:
your turn
Kyle says:
no, the agreement was all of your stuff, thenthe rest of mine
LeeAnn says:
gah
LeeAnn says:
fine
LeeAnn says:
I like biting - a lot
Kyle says:
getting bitten, or bitting?
LeeAnn says:
both
Kyle says:
cool
LeeAnn says:
haha cool?
Kyle says:
yup, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha okay
LeeAnn says:
hair pulling is nice to a certain extent
Kyle says:
of course
LeeAnn says:
I also like blindfolding and handcuffing the other . . .
Kyle says:
never had that done to me before
Kyle says:
but continue
LeeAnn says:
never?
LeeAnn says:
you don't like the idea?
Kyle says:
nope, im always the dominant one in those for some reason
Kyle says:
no i dont mind, they just like the idea of me doing it more
LeeAnn says:
haha okay
Kyle says:
ok more goodies c'mon, lol
LeeAnn says:
goodies? is that what we're calling them now?
Kyle says:
yup, lol
LeeAnn says:
I like toys
Kyle says:
what kind?
LeeAnn says:
vibrators are the bes
LeeAnn says:
best*
Kyle says:
like with the guy or on your own?
LeeAnn says:
not that I've had a lot of experience with them, unfortunatly
LeeAnn says:
like during sex
LeeAnn says:
they're fine by themselves, too
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
but not as good
Kyle says:
hmmm i dont like using them durring sex, they get in the way of me operating at max efficiency, lol
LeeAnn says:
really?
Kyle says:
they stimulate things that i dont want stimulated till a bit later
LeeAnn says:
I like having it on my clit and it the guy seems to like it too
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
I think it makes finishing so much better
Kyle says:
feels cool, but i think its something clumsy that keeps me from the rest of your body
LeeAnn says:
aw, they're small
Kyle says:
and it also makes me feel like my cocks not good enough, lol
Kyle says:
yeah but your hand's occupied hen it could be pleasing another part of you
Kyle says:
*when
LeeAnn says:
your hand or the girls hand?
Kyle says:
if its the girls hand its notr bad, when its mine its bad
LeeAnn says:
yeah
LeeAnn says:
well, that's why the girl's supposed to hold it
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
yeah, but then they focus on doing things to themselves instead of having things done to them
Kyle says:
takes away surprise and stuff
LeeAnn says:
huh I dunno
LeeAnn says:
I like the double feeling
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
also, I sometimes need the help
Kyle says:
i justthink its distracting
LeeAnn says:
it's really hard to make me orgasim
Kyle says:
hmmm, i've heard that before
LeeAnn says:
?
Kyle says:
they always cum, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
well, it's hard even for me to make myself orgasm
Kyle says:
hmm, then you might be tough, but still, dont think toy's needed, lol
LeeAnn says:
it isn't NEEDED necessarily . . . it's nice
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
I take a long time and so it helps the guy out too
Kyle says:
ok ok, next kinky pleasure
LeeAnn says:
well, as you said, I haven't had much experience, but I really want to try out this white chocolate fingerpaint . . .
Kyle says:
hmmm, you really are into the sex shop stuff huh
LeeAnn says:
>_> what can I say?
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
im just more of a naturalist, but i like the sex shop stuff to spice it up sometimes
LeeAnn says:
yeah . . .
LeeAnn says:
well, I had to go to a sex shop in order to have an orgasm
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
It took a vibrator for me
LeeAnn says:
and I've always liked bondage like stuff
LeeAnn says:
so yeah . . .
Kyle says:
thats cool
LeeAnn says:
wow, I'm really tired to be saying all this
Kyle says:
lol, why?
LeeAnn says:
I'm not this open unless I'm half asleep
Kyle says:
noted, haha
LeeAnn says:
oh god
LeeAnn says:
you're going to use that against me, aren't you?
Kyle says:
not really against you, but yewah i'll use it in the future
LeeAnn says:
. . . -_-
Kyle says:
dont worry babe
Kyle says:
but yeah im surprised you have used a virating cock ring yet
LeeAnn says:
I haven't, but I would like to try :
LeeAnn says:
*
Kyle says:
*vibrating
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
yeah, THAT's pretty good
LeeAnn says:
it sounds like it'd be fantastic
Kyle says:
i lost mine though, gotta go buy a new one, lol
LeeAnn says:
aw
LeeAnn says:
it's okay - you're a naturalist
Kyle says:
yup
Kyle says:
dont need toys to please my women
LeeAnn says:
haha alright
LeeAnn says:
I'll keep that in mind
Kyle says:
what? they usually cum twice
LeeAnn says:
nice
Kyle says:
if we only go one time
Kyle says:
which we rarely do, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
so what other kinky stuff you like my sexy friend?
LeeAnn says:
I'm not sure
LeeAnn says:
I've actually only had sex three times, most of this I figured out from fooling around
LeeAnn says:
but I'm pretty open to trying new things
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
with yourself or just other non sex stuff?
LeeAnn says:
what do you mean?
LeeAnn says:
am I open to trying new things with myself?
Kyle says:
like fooling around when you're fingering yourself, or by having them done to you but not durring sex
LeeAnn says:
mainly having them done to me
LeeAnn says:
a couple things Ive found out by myself
Kyle says:
so yuo havent tried anal yet huh?
LeeAnn says:
well . . .
LeeAnn says:
not quite
Kyle says:
lol, explain
LeeAnn says:
there was once that he started, but it hurt too much
Kyle says:
well ye4ah, you gotta know how to get you used to it first
LeeAnn says:
I know
LeeAnn says:
but it still hurt
Kyle says:
you cant just go in with your cock
LeeAnn says:
I know, fingers first
Kyle says:
a finger first, you have to be relaxed, and lube makes ALL the diff
LeeAnn says:
yeah
LeeAnn says:
I guess you like anal
LeeAnn says:
?
Kyle says:
... maybe, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha that's a yes
Kyle says:
not on me of course, on her
LeeAnn says:
well, yeah
Kyle says:
i told you im an ass man, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
LeeAnn says:
quite litterally, huh?
Kyle says:
you seem to me like you'd realy like it
Kyle says:
yup
LeeAnn says:
I dunno
LeeAnn says:
I'll find out eventually, I'm sure
Kyle says:
yup, lol
LeeAnn says:

LeeAnn says:
anything else you wanna know?
Kyle says:
i wanna know everything about sex, lol
LeeAnn says:
good luck with that
Kyle says:
whats your favorite part to have kissed/sucked on?
LeeAnn says:
boobs or neck
Kyle says:
usuals, hey brb
LeeAnn says:
ok
LeeAnn says:
they are the usuals, but they are the best
Kyle says:
ehhh, depends what feeling you're looking for
LeeAnn says:
?
Kyle says:
they may feel sexy, but not sensual
Kyle says:
which in the bigging is what you want
Kyle says:
*beginning
LeeAnn says:
I dunno, they feel pretty sensual to me
Kyle says:
have you ever been kissed lightly right below your neck on your back?
LeeAnn says:
no
Kyle says:
there ya go, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha alright
Kyle says:
another real good one is right below where your belt is usually
LeeAnn says:
hmm
LeeAnn says:
havent' been kissed there, etiher
Kyle says:
or inside of your legs, really close to your pussy
LeeAnn says:
huh . . .
Kyle says:
just like your inner theigh, really close to where it meets your pelvice
LeeAnn says:
hmmm .. .
Kyle says:
but not too close
LeeAnn says:
you know the exact spot, huh?
Kyle says:
yup, lol
Kyle says:
more of an area than a spot, but yeah
Kyle says:
also the small of your back is good
Kyle says:
as well as lightly right behind your shoulders
Kyle says:
you still there?
LeeAnn says:
sorru
LeeAnn says:
sorry*
LeeAnn says:
I'm still here
Kyle says:
ok
Kyle says:
those spots sound good to you?
LeeAnn says:
yeah
LeeAnn says:
I'm sad I haven't been kissed there T_T
Kyle says:
awww, i cn kiss you in a couple of them next time im giving you a back rub if you'd like
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
right
Kyle says:
what?
Kyle says:
just the back ones, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha I would hope so
LeeAnn says:
I'm sure you wouldn't be trying to turn me on or anything
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
so? lol
Kyle says:
i cant help it if you like it
Kyle says:
i know i would, lol
LeeAnn says:
you would like it?
Kyle says:
yeah, i love kissing in those places
Kyle says:
i like making girls feel good
Kyle says:
it makes me happy
LeeAnn says:
haha well that's a good thing in my book
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
yeah, so if you ever need a massage on anything, or a kiss wherever, i'd be happy to do it
LeeAnn says:
i'll keep that in mind
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
lol, ok
Kyle says:
im here to please
Kyle says:

LeeAnn says:
I'm here to be pleased haha jk
Kyle says:
aww, if you werent joking that would be awesome, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
sorry
Kyle says:
so you like having any odd place kissed?
LeeAnn says:
I dunno
LeeAnn says:
I know that I don't like my bellybutton
LeeAnn says:
does that count?
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
i guess
Kyle says:
1 place to avoid, good to know
LeeAnn says:
making a list?
Kyle says:
not really, lol
Kyle says:
my head just kinda remembers sex stuff
LeeAnn says:
alright that works
Kyle says:
do you like it when the guys cums on you?
LeeAnn says:
I'm indifferent about it
Kyle says:
you just dont mind it? lol
Kyle says:
doesnt turn you on though
LeeAnn says:
no
LeeAnn says:
It's sticky and nasty
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
shower sex, all i gotta say
Kyle says:
or a towel works well
LeeAnn says:
never done that
LeeAnn says:
towel?
LeeAnn says:
like to clean it up XD
Kyle says:
shower sex is fucking amazing
Kyle says:
yup
LeeAnn says:
i bet it is
Kyle says:
shower sex is hot, steamy, slippery, sensual, everything's clean so you can do whatever you want to the girl, cum wherever you want on her, just all food fun
Kyle says:
*good
Kyle says:
damn... i need to have some shower sex like pronto, lol
LeeAnn says:
why pronto?
Kyle says:
b/c i havent had it in a while, and its so good
Kyle says:
and im horny, lol
Kyle says:
im a guy, its constant
LeeAnn says:
haha right
LeeAnn says:
how coudl I forget
Kyle says:
so where have you been came on?
LeeAnn says:
my chest
LeeAnn says:
that's all
Kyle says:
usually the girls favorite, not mine though, lol
LeeAnn says:
where is yours?
Kyle says:
i like the ass (of course) the face, and the stomach
LeeAnn says:
hmmm
Kyle says:
and if im in your ass, then cuming in there's good sometimes too
Kyle says:
what hmm?
LeeAnn says:
just never thoguht about it
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
thought about what?
LeeAnn says:
the places you could cum on a girl
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
face is the hottest and kinkiest for some reason
LeeAnn says:
if you say so
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
i would think that you with a blindfold on, hands cuffed behind your back, bent over in doggy, and then having cum on your face, matches up well
Kyle says:
after being fucked in doggy of course
LeeAnn says:
i like all that but cum in the face
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
then on your ass
Kyle says:
yeah i figured youd like all that
LeeAnn says:
how did you guess?
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
my mind automatically put together our best sex scenarios when you told me stuff you like, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
it kinda does that on its own
LeeAnn says:
nice
LeeAnn says:
what did you think of said sex senarios?
Kyle says:
and if you like anal a thum in your ass while i fuck you doggy, lol
Kyle says:
very nice
LeeAnn says:
mr. natural likes my ideas
Kyle says:
it makes you happy, so its not too bad
Kyle says:
but since your handcuffed, no vibrator
LeeAnn says:
aw, true
LeeAnn says:
it's my friend!
Kyle says:
my cock will have to be enough, lol
Kyle says:
aww poor thing
LeeAnn says:
I guess it will have to do
Kyle says:
it'll work, dont worry
LeeAnn says:
if you say so
Kyle says:
i do, lol
Kyle says:
i bet i could find stuff you like that you dont even know about, lol
Kyle says:
you still there?
LeeAnn says:
sorry had to go to the bathroom
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:

LeeAnn says:
sorry
Kyle says:
its ok
LeeAnn says:
so . . .
Kyle says:
so... lol
LeeAnn says:
you owe me sex positions
Kyle says:
haha, fine i'll tell you 2 of the 3, saving the best for me since i told you a bunch of other stuff
LeeAnn says:
I told you a bunch of other stuff too!
Kyle says:
yeah but it was all part of the original plan
LeeAnn says:
no, I was supposed to stop at the secret
Kyle says:
kinku stuff you like
Kyle says:
*kinky
LeeAnn says:
yeah, but I told you more than that
Kyle says:
hmmm, i'll think about the third
LeeAnn says:
*pout*
Kyle says:
oh dont pout, doesnt work for sex, lol
LeeAnn says:
damnit
Kyle says:
ok, the next one is reverse cowgirl
Kyle says:
it's a combo of doggy and girl on top
Kyle says:
you're on top of me, but just facing away from me
LeeAnn says:
I actually know of that one
Kyle says:
yup, a good one
Kyle says:
i like it b/c i get to look at your ass and spank you, while you do all the work and get off the fastest, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
ok, next one is used mainly in the shower, but can be done anywhere, assuming that the guy is strong enough
LeeAnn says:
alright
Kyle says:
standing up, you jump up on me, wrap your legs around my waist, and then arms around neck. my hands are on your ass, and then we both kinda work together muslce wise to pull you up and then pretty much let you drop
Kyle says:
it gets deeper than i think anything else can
Kyle says:
and if you're in the shower, both fully naked, and slippery, so it's even better, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha yeah
LeeAnn says:
that sounds awesome, but I'm afraid I'd squish him
Kyle says:
haha, depends on teh guy
LeeAnn says:
it looks weird, though
Kyle says:
yeah but you're nto watching yourself, lol
LeeAnn says:
I saw that in a porn video once
Kyle says:
well you just look at each other's face, i'd usually look at your tits bouncing in my face though, lol
LeeAnn says:
XD
Kyle says:
and then she's usually moaning so her eyes are closed
LeeAnn says:
hmmm
Kyle says:
what?
LeeAnn says:
just thinking
Kyle says:
lol, about?
LeeAnn says:
how it would work
Kyle says:
works well, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha I'll take your word for it
Kyle says:
like i said, dude has to be pretty big
LeeAnn says:
yeah
LeeAnn says:
I would imagine so
LeeAnn says:
so what's number three?
Kyle says:
hmmmm, debating if i should tell you or not
LeeAnn says:
you should
LeeAnn says:

Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
well there's no benefit of telling you, i'd just be losing a good position
LeeAnn says:
I won't hug you if I don't
LeeAnn says:
you don't*
Kyle says:
yes you will, lol
LeeAnn says:
nuh uh
LeeAnn says:
no more snuggles
Kyle says:
fine, i need lots of huggles and cuddling though
LeeAnn says:
ok
LeeAnn says:
I'll see what I can do on thursday
Kyle says:
haha, ok
Kyle says:
pretty simple actually, you on your back, me sitting up, both your legs together (could easily be tied) legs up on my shoulder, and then i apply all my other little tricks
Kyle says:
hits your g spot and clit the entire time
Kyle says:
2 girls have actually passed out after cuming in that one, lol
LeeAnn says:
O_O
LeeAnn says:
passed out?
Kyle says:
yup, came, then fainted
LeeAnn says:
wow
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
I can't say i've ever fainted
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
they came A LOT and very hard
LeeAnn says:
O_O
LeeAnn says:
sounds painful
Kyle says:
i'd better get some wicked hugs and cuddling on Thurs
LeeAnn says:
haha
Kyle says:
no not painful, they really enjoyed it
LeeAnn says:
*huggles*
Kyle says:
haha, real ones please
LeeAnn says:
I can't right now
LeeAnn says:
but thursday
Kyle says:
ok
Kyle says:
and when you have a really good orgasm (im really good at fingering) your entitre body will shake uncontrolably
LeeAnn says:
yeah
Kyle says:
sometimes you just cant walk for a couple hours
LeeAnn says:
O_o couple hours?
LeeAnn says:
I've gotten to the shaking part but I've always been able to walk
Kyle says:
yeah, some of their legs were so tired they couldnt walk
LeeAnn says:
weird
Kyle says:
thats after a lot of hard kinky sex though, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha I would imagine
Kyle says:
and a good cum
LeeAnn says:
hmmm
LeeAnn says:
I'm so jealous of them . . . I have such a hard time cumming it's not fiar
LeeAnn says:
fair*
Kyle says:
lol
Kyle says:
well im pretty good at making girls ccum, otherwise they only cum sometimes
LeeAnn says:
?
Kyle says:
what?
LeeAnn says:
that didn't make much sense
Kyle says:
with other guys they dont cum too often, but they do with me
LeeAnn says:
oh okay
LeeAnn says:
sweet
Kyle says:
lol
LeeAnn says:
well, hey, as much as I would love to continue talking sex with you, I must go
LeeAnn says:
I have to work tomorrow
Kyle says:
awww sad day
LeeAnn says:
sorry
Kyle says:
yeah i gotta wake up at 8
LeeAnn says:
I'm sure I'll be back on tomarrow night
LeeAnn says:
ouch
LeeAnn says:
get your ass to bed
Kyle says:
we can talk about sex more on thurs if all else fails, lol
LeeAnn says:
very tre
LeeAnn says:
true*
LeeAnn says:
so until then!
Kyle says:
should be more interesting in person, lol
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
we'll see
Kyle says:
bye, night
LeeAnn says:
g'night

Of my boy, school, and hydrocodon

2008-05-18T23:16:00.000-07:00

Alright, I'm back with an explanation like I promised: I grew an appendage, hung out with all my friends, did homework, and slept. And that's what happened to my life.

I actually grew really really attached to Colin in the short amount of time we spent together, I've been home for three days and I miss him already. I liked having him around, even though he never talked a whole lot. He's loud, but not chatty, which is really obvious in our conversations. I have to keep them going or they stop. He's happy not to talk, which is fine when we can sit next to each other and cuddle, but a little more difficult over the phone. We slept together on the weekends, I found out I actually love sleeping next to someone. Colin makes a great pillow or cuddle buddy. He started to take naps with me - he complained all the time that he never used to take naps before he started dating me and I've corrupted him. Actually, he's corrupted me . . . I'm not as innocent as I used to be :X. But I can't say that's a bad thing.

I've found that I like drinking because of him, who woulda thunk it right? I just don't like the taste of alcohol. I never knew you could drink so much of it and not taste it O_O. Blue and Dew is the best shit ever. I have to be careful, though, if I drink while pmsing or upset, everything goes downhill. Found that out the first night I was drinking - I was pmsing and we went back to my room and I just bawled when I got back and drunk dialed KC. I went a bunch more times after that. I don't know how many times I've been drunk, but I'm pretty sure it's still less than five. I remember everything, at least :D I've never been shitfaced. That doesn't sound like fun at all, but being a little wobbly is fun.

I also went to my first frat party. I wasn't a fan of it, but I had to go to at least one because I'm never going to get the chance to go again. It was horribly crowded and the beer was the worst stuff ever. Jacqui was upset about this guys Nevin who's an asshole who used to talk to her and all, and so we had to take her alcohol and cigarettes . . . I also bought this crazy corset top for the party. I love the top, but it's something that I'd never wear. I don't know what got into me when I bought it. Colin liked it, too XD. I only got to wear it once unfortunately. I'm still saving it for something or other.

Speaking of strange things I've been wearing, I bought a bikini today O_O I know, right? Craziness. What else can I say? I still need to work on my stomach and all, but Colin's really helped with my self-esteem, it could probably still use a little work, though.

Oh yeah, I ended up buying a vibrator . . . that was an awkward adventure with Angela and Sean. I was talking to them about orgasming. I'm really confused on the subject, so I'm not going to go in depth on it. I'm not sure if I have orgasmed or not. They say you know, but I've never had a definitive point where I'm like, "woah . . ." or anything. So I dunno. Anyways, I bought this crazy vibrator with like seven settings and shit. Let me tell you, this thing makes sex fucking fantastic. Oh yeah, I lost that, too. It was special because I really really like him and I wanted to experience it before going all the way out in San Fransisco. I know that's a bad reason, but it makes sense to me. I want to be ready to go out there, and now I feel like I know what I'll be getting myself into with any relationship that comes my way. So thank you, Colin. I can't say it was a bad experience, either.

Sadly, I had to break up with Colin when the school year ended. Let me tell you, it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. If we hadn't agreed on it before, I probably wouldn't have gone through with it. I have never been so ungodly distraught over someone or something. It freaked me out, but I couldn't help it. I'm so not used to being so dependent on someone. I hid my crying all through the day, out of the half dozen times I cried the first day I came home, i was only caught once or twice. The second day, too. I think Angela knew I was depressed, but I don't think she knew how badly. I still miss him terribly, but now that I'm on my forth day Colin-less, I'm getting much better. It might have something to do with him coming to visit at the lake this weekend . . . well, it defiantly helped. It's given me something to look forward to. Actually now that I think about it, I've been happier ever since I thought that I'd be able to visit him . . . oh fuck, I'm helpless.

Tonight I checked when his work let out online (like a fucking stalker) and then waited for him to get online just so that I could talk to him. I was getting worried for a while that I wouldn't get to talk to him, but I did :D It made me really really happy. It was a good conversation. Same for the other days. Talking to him makes me happier. What can I say? I'm addicted to a failure at conversation.

His never talking very much got me really worried that he would have broken up with me if we were still going to school together, but he took care of that tonight. I was actually freaking out about that quite a bit . . . what can I say? I'm pretty self-conscious. I was really distraught when he changed his facebook status so quickly. He didn't change his picture until the next day, though . . . it made me feel a little better because his picture was of us kissing. I'm betting he's changed his phone background by now, too. But oh well, I can' t blame him, I mean, we aren't dating anymore, no matter how much I would love to.

He's really happy to be home, which also worried me. He wouldn't stay an extra day so that I wouldn't have to be at school alone on Thursday night because he wanted to get home so badly. I understand that he missed trevor, but it made me really upset that I was going to have to spend my last night at MSU alone and that we had the opportunity to have one more day together and he didn't want to stay. I didn't understand right away, I was upset, but I get it now . . . somewhat. He says he's going to come visit sometime, and I'm holding him to it, I miss him already.

I am horrified at how attached I am to this boy, especially since I'm leaving him, but I'm so glad that I'll still be able to talk to him when I leave and that he doesn't hate me like his last girlfriend, who, btw, I'm so horribly jealous of that it makes me ashamed of myself. I can't believe that she would ever cheat on such a great guy, but he still loves her. She was obviously doing something right. They dated two years, we dated three months, big difference, huh? Maybe if we were able to keep dating, he would have fallen in love with me . . . maybe.

He dislocated my toe. We got a call from Laura and she needed some people to fight and they could get a picture of us while fighting for their scavenger hunt. Well, so I jumped onto Colin's back and got him around the neck while he bent forward and slid me off his back . . . into a wall. I fell pretty hard, and noticed something felt wrong with my toe. Thank god I was wearing socks. I reached and felt my toe and noticed that it was not how it was supposed to be. I told everyone I broke my toe and rolled over on my stomach and refused to look at it. I was more freaked out than actually hurt, thank god.

I called my mom, while crying, and asked her what hospital took our insurance . . . not the way to start a conversation with you mother. She told me to just go to the closest because she didn't know, and low and behold, they didn't take it. It was a 200 dollar co-pay, totally ridiculous because all I needed was someone to freaking pop my toe back in place. We waited in the waiting room for at least four and a half hours just to get a room and then they were slow with the xrays and shit because they had to make sure it was in the right place. She didn't get it the first time, either. It took two times to freaking pop my toe back into place. Hurt like hell. But they later gave me some hydrocodon which made all my pain go away! :D

Unfortunatally I couldn't get to the pharmacy until the next day after I had to walk all the way the fuck to Strong Hall in agonizing pain. But after that, I was good :D That shit made me so high it was ridiculous. I talked to Rachel about taco night - she thought I was drunk, but apparently I'm still invited - and went around and hugged EVERYONE before I went to bed, and just did all kinds of stupid shit. Being high in class was pretty fun, though, too. I made a paper frog and gave it to the girl next to me before taking it back . . . I thought it was hilarious at the time.

We also did stupid shit in the hospital, too, though. The three of us, Megan, Colin, and me had to wait there for freakin ever. We had fun racing the wheelchair, though, all around the waiting room. Me and Megan went on a quest, too, to find the holy tampon dispenser! I forgot to take a tampon with me in my plight, and so we went to the bathroom and put in a quarter, but it ate it and we got nothing. After another quarter, we determined the thing was empty. So we got a map and some directions and took off through the hospital. Megan was pushing me in the wheel chair and that is the way to go. Much nicer haha. We found the one bathroom, but it didn't have a tampon dispenser, so we had to ask the janiters. . . that was really awkward.

After an explanation, he pointed us in the right direction and gave us his story about being a father of two daughters and how he's used to "feminine issues". I checked my wallet and realized I had no change, so Megan took my dollar and ran off to a change machine she saw. The bastard gave us a Sacajawea dollar. I mean, seriously, what the fuck? We put in a dollar just to get another dollar out. Bastards. The janitor helped me out again and gave me a quarter. Bless his soul. He was actually a really nice guy, I hope everything goes well for him.

It's been almost two weeks (this tuesday marks the two weeks), and my toe still fucking hurts. I gave Colin a bunch of my painkillers so that he could sleep before his finals XD. Oh yeah, and Megan knows about everything. I found out that I can really talk to her about anything. Unfortunatly, I found out right before leaving school XD. Oh well, there's still facebook, right? Which she hasn't been on since we've been outta school . . . hope she made it home alright.

For my finals, I probably did not study as much as I should have, I really wanted to spend as much time with Colin and my friends as possible (oh yeah, I got high, not off of pills :P, while I should have been studying once, now I can say that I've smoked it, it was pretty entertaining, too, making shapes out of trail mix is more fun while high). I was a bit peeved at my sci fi teacher, he gave me an 80 on my paper for things that weren't grammer mistakes, but he called them that anyways. They were PREFERENCES, my ways worked just fine. But whatever. That class isn't transfering. The way I see it, I'm getting three As and two Bs, could be worse. The Bs are in media and sci fi, sickeningly enough. Oh well. Life goes on.

Well, I'm sure there's more to say, but it's 2am and I have to mow the lawn tomarrow. So I'm signing off . . .

The after break-up talk . . . or the closest thing we've had to one.

2008-05-18T23:12:00.001-07:00

eh, haven't been here for a while, but I wanna post this before I lose it, and then I'll come back with a full explanation of my absence and a couple whines and rants. I feel like early high school all over again with posting an IM conversation, but oh, fuck it. I want this one, so here it is:

LeeAnn says:
hey! youre online! why no say "hello"?
Colin says:
sorry
Colin says:
i just got off work
LeeAnn says:
yuck
LeeAnn says:
how was it?
Colin says:
boring
LeeAnn says:
aw, i'm sorry
LeeAnn says:
work generally is, though
Colin says:
well when there's nobody shopping
LeeAnn says:
most people don't shop at midnight
Colin says:
yeah
Colin says:
i know
Colin says:
i was there
LeeAnn says:
haha yeah
LeeAnn says:
I got called into work yesterday >_<
Colin says:
sorry
LeeAnn says:
eh, issokay
LeeAnn says:
so what are you up to?
Colin says:
about to head over to trevor's
LeeAnn says:
at midnight O_o
Colin says:
it's what we do
LeeAnn says:
your parents don't mind you leaving this late?
LeeAnn says:
mine flip out on me >_<
Colin says:
i don't think they'll stop me
Colin says:
i've done it before
LeeAnn says:
haha you're not even going to tell them? just disapear?
Colin says:
yep
Colin says:
ninja
LeeAnn says:
how could I ever forget
LeeAnn says:
are you spending the night at his house? so they get to wake up to having no kid? haha
Colin says:
i usually write a note
LeeAnn says:
oh, okay
LeeAnn says:
I wish my parents were as nice as yours XD
LeeAnn says:
btw, did you ask if you could go to the lake?
Colin says:
no but they'll let me
Colin says:
not yet anyways
LeeAnn says:
mmkay cool
LeeAnn says:
. . . I went swimsuit shopping today >_>
LeeAnn says:
it was painful
Colin says:
you get one?
LeeAnn says:
yeah
LeeAnn says:
it's orange
Colin says:
is it a bikini
LeeAnn says:
>_> maybe . . .
Colin says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
?
LeeAnn says:
if you laugh at me I'll have to wear a cover up all weekend
Colin says:
i won't laugh
LeeAnn says:
you just did *pout*
Colin says:
not at you in it
LeeAnn says:
what were you laughing at?
Colin says:
your embarassment
LeeAnn says:
why thank you

LeeAnn says:

Colin says:

LeeAnn says:
*huggles*
Colin says:
thank you
LeeAnn says:
you are very welcome
LeeAnn says:
*huggles*
LeeAnn says:
I'm still getting used to not having you around all the time XD
Colin says:
so am i
LeeAnn says:
blagh, I gotta mow the lawn tomarrow T_T
Colin says:
sorry
Colin says:
that sucks
LeeAnn says:
yeah . . . but because of my toe, I don't have to do the push lawnmower!
LeeAnn says:
I get to do the part with the rider!
Colin says:
sexy
LeeAnn says:
oh, isn't it, though?
LeeAnn says:
I know a girl on a lawnmower turns you on
LeeAnn says:
hah
Colin says:
...yeah
LeeAnn says:
so what are you up to tomarrow?
Colin says:
waking up
LeeAnn says:
is that all?
Colin says:
idk
LeeAnn says:
that's a pretty thrilling and eventful day
Colin says:
maybe more
LeeAnn says:
no work?
Colin says:
nope
LeeAnn says:
sweet
LeeAnn says:
I buuurn
LeeAnn says:
T_T I got sunburnt today
Colin says:
i'm sorry
Colin says:
*kisses*
LeeAnn says:
kiss the sunburn and you'd be kissing between my boobs XD haha
Colin says:
ha, you don't mind.
LeeAnn says:
what can I say?
LeeAnn says:
I might have to get burnt there more often
Colin says:
haha
Colin says:
alright i won't complain
LeeAnn says:
so when we go to the lake and I'm bright red, you'll know why and there shall be no complaining
LeeAnn says:
hah
Colin says:
ok
Colin says:
kisses all over?
LeeAnn says:
maybe, but that'd require laying out in the sun naked, so I'm prolly not going to get burnt all over
Colin says:
well, i can kiss all over anyways..
Colin says:
you don't mind sex with your ex?...
LeeAnn says:
do you still like me?
Colin says:
of course i do
Colin says:
but we won't be dating...
LeeAnn says:
yeah, I know, that wouldn't make sense right now
LeeAnn says:
but if we could, would you still date me?
Colin says:
no i just asked you out for shits ang giggles...
LeeAnn says:
haha alright then
LeeAnn says:
I guess I'm not really opposed to it
LeeAnn says:
are you?
Colin says:
....i do wanna fuck you again...
Colin says:
and now i'm horny...
LeeAnn says:
I hope you want to see me more than you want to fuck me . . .
LeeAnn says:
and I'm sorry I've made you horny now
Colin says:
well yes
Colin says:
and it's ok
Colin says:
i'm going to have to take care of this before i got to trevor;s
LeeAnn says:
O_O
LeeAnn says:
that bad?
Colin says:
yes
LeeAnn says:
XD well, I feel special to be able to do that
LeeAnn says:
haha
LeeAnn says:
btw, my dad is coming now, so you'll be on the boat for sure. But if ashley doesn't bring her boyfriend you'll have the boat to yourself and I might be able to sneak down.
LeeAnn says:

Colin says:
....ooo please do
LeeAnn says:
haha you like that idea?
Colin says:
very much...neverr fucked on a boat..
LeeAnn says:
I haven't either
Colin says:
want to?
LeeAnn says:
I miss sleeping and taking naps with you T_T
LeeAnn says:
um, maybe . . . we'll see
Colin says:
i miss it too
LeeAnn says:
*snuggle*
LeeAnn says:
when are you going to come to the lake?
LeeAnn says:
saturday night?
Colin says:
maybe
Colin says:
idk yet
LeeAnn says:
alright. I dunno when we're leaving on monday . . .
LeeAnn says:
it'd be really awesome if you could get offa work on saturday and come friday night or saturday morning.
Colin says:
i can't
Colin says:
i'm covering for someone
LeeAnn says:
oh, okay
Colin says:
yeah
Colin says:
sorry
LeeAnn says:
it's all good
Colin says:
well i gotta go to trevors
LeeAnn says:
what time do you have to work on saturday?
LeeAnn says:
alright, have fun
Colin says:
idk when i work
LeeAnn says:
O_o
LeeAnn says:
. . . alright
Colin says:
i'll let you know
LeeAnn says:
mmkay
Colin says:
night night
LeeAnn says:
night night
LeeAnn says:
if you're bored tomarrow, you can give me a call, I won't be doing anything
Colin says:
ok
Colin says:
i will
LeeAnn says:

LeeAnn says:
yay
LeeAnn says:
have fun at trevors
Colin says:
will do
Colin says:
night
LeeAnn says:
g'night

fuck this

2008-03-24T20:30:00.000-07:00

jeezus, been a while, huh? I've been putting this off forever. My appendage is everywhere with me and I don't get a break. God, I'm bummed, though, and I don't know why. Well, I kinda do. Relationships put me down, really bad. I love them, but I hate what they do to me. I'm happy with myself until I want someone else to be happy with me, too. Jeez, I feel fat, ugly, stupid, and all around fucked up. I don't know why this happens, I really don't. I talked about suicide today, apparently randomly associating things with suicide is not normal . . . yeah, well, good thing I'm not suicidal. I couldn't do it, not anymore. Gah, I need to draw . . . something bloody and upsetting. It makes me feel better. btw, I'm not going to post any of the recent pictures I've done because they've been gaia commissions.

I wish I was pretty. Every now and then I manage a cute, but never pretty, never sexy. Colin says I can be, but I don't think so. I tried to take kinda sexy pictures, and I failed. I'm just not sexy without my shirt off. I wish I was beautiful. I want to hide away.

I'm terrified. Leaving for San Fran still scares the piss out of me and it's getting worse. I'm hiding a lot of it, but I still tell everyone that I'm scared and I fucking cried when jessica and megan left for spring break. I'm so weak. I need to be stronger. I'm not even out of school yet, and I'm already freaking out. It's so like me. This is why I didn't want to be in a relationship or have many friends. Hanging back out with angela and sean really ephasized how much I'm going to miss them when I'm going.

I feel awful typing all this, so weak, I can't stand to get this all out in a post that no one's ever going to read, I swear I'm emotionally fucked up. I'm trying to open up, but I really don't want to. I really don't.

Ninja Kiss

2008-02-20T22:47:00.001-08:00

Alright, I'm an awful person and have been putting this off. Why? I'm not totally sure. Maybe it's because I have a new appendage - mah boyfriend and I won't write in this if he isn't here.

Well, it's after midnight so he's not here now! I drew this picture for him for valentine's day - put all my efforts into it and then didn't manage to get him his bday stuff done XD so I'm working on that. I'm make an animtion for him! It's kinda fun. I got adobe after effects for my bday, which is awesome! I also got a body pillow, some work out clothes, and a body pillow. Ashley also got me a necklace. I feel so spoiled . . . but it's okay! I spoiled Ashley with her new shirt and candy.

Colin came over last weekend and hung out. He was impressed with my house and now he brings up money more than I'd like, but he hasn't said it to other people, which is cool. He's doing better than Kevin. I'm trying to get across that I'm not super spoiled and my parents don't give me anything I want and that I DO work for most all of my stuff and buy it with my own money and that my family isn't as extravagant as it seems. I don't know why I care so much, but I do. All of his preconceptions aren't true, and I don't want him to think badly of me because of it. I have the opposite problem of most - gah! Life sucks sometimes.

He met Ang and Sean, though, and we had fun. We went to the loop and Ang's dorm. Later, me and Colin hung out, just DDR and Gundam Wing. . . . and a serious make out session (shhh! don't tell dad!) . . . he spent the night, I felt bad waking him up in the morning and then felt worse when he didn't have time to take a good shower :X. I'm a mess.

Colin is very touchy-feely, and so far it hasn't bothered me, which is weird. He does like to kiss a lot, which I guess is alright, if it bothers me, I'll tell him. So until then . . . I do have an ungodly amount of hickies . . . eh, I was attacked. I do like them, but I feel like a whore to admit it. Today, though, he scared me. It was just too fast and all. I don't know what to do, I feel so inexperienced. I have never made out with a guy this fast, much less anything else. Today with the hickies and the other stuff, it was just too much and I made him stop. I felt really bad, though. He says he understands, but he was still all over me all day . . . I might have to talk to him about needing some space sometime, but heh, we'll see.

Today I got dressed up and everything because I felt like it. I took a shower after class and did my hair and make up and wore a decent shirt - I think Colin liked it a bit too much. I was really surprised. I thought I looked halfway decent, but I never think I look beautiful. Cute on a nice day, but never pretty. And Colin called me sexy, which was crazy . . . I don't know if he's good for myself esteem or not. I mean, I'm always worried about my weight and how I look and I'm down on myself a lot because of him, but then there's when he says I'm pretty and it boosts my self-esteem, though I did tell him that I'm not dressing up for him anymore because i got attacked and then he gave me hickies on my chest so that I can't wear v-neck shirts for a while . . . He got my waist a lot, too.

I'm almost disgusted by msyelf at how much a boy has taken over my life. I mean, hell, I haven't drawn anything in about a week. I feel so . . . unproductive. There is a contest coming up and I'm going to enter, I need to start it soon. It has to be bone and skull jewlery inspired, but that's all, so it could be fun. I need to work on my portraits, too. So I think I'll start on that this weekend, but I do have a test on Monday. I also want to start working out again. Today I took a nap so that didn't happen. I need to get going to bed sooner. I've been goign to bed at two every morning which isn't good, but I've been doing it. Well, here I am it's 1:13 and I'm typing this. Gah, I'm going to bed.

Scarlet and Difficulties

2008-02-07T22:45:00.000-08:00

Did this this today because I hadn't drawn in so long. She's different, but cute :D

Well, it's been a busy week. This weekend, I hung out with Nia and Benny beacause everyone else left me alone this weekend. I ended up becoming friends with a bunch more people, which was cool :D. Colin was also one of her friends, and uh . . . yesh, we're dating now :D. I'm a little worried due to my "relationship issues" . . . yes, those, the really long list. I honestly don't know what I was thinking. I'm fucked up. I feel bad for Eric . . . I'll just have to see how this goes, i guess. He's really touchy-feely, and I'm not, that's possibly my biggest worry, but he's a nerd like me, which is a bonus :D. Oh well, we'll see.

Well, today I met with my group and one of my uncooperative members actually pissed me off to the point of tears. Don't want to say more. It sucked and it was embarrasing. On top of that, last night (when Colin asked me out) I was in a fight with Kevin because he was being a pain in the ass again. We gave him a lecture on himself - we'll see how that turns out.

That's all for now, don't want to write more. I'm not in a writing mood (wrote an eight page paper last night. Still hurts to think about it).

Wrestling, Snowflakes, and Football

2008-01-31T22:18:00.001-08:00

Today (or rather, yesterday now), started off a little rough, but ended really well. It snowed all day and evening classes were cancelled. Jessica was a bitch and we had a fight and Megan was in on it, so needless to say, it didn't go very well. I ended up staying in Laura's room for a long time. Me and Jess fought, wrestled, but if i had been fighting back, I do believe I would have put up a good fight. Laura got a picture of me sitting on her when she grabbed me and I twisted around. Anyways, I didn't talk to her for quite a while. But after I was (mostly) done fuming we went out and played in the snow! We were invited to play football, it was a blast. I got tackled a couple times. I really can't catch the ball worth crap. It was so cold, it was crazy and everyone just kept playing. I got called everything from batgirl to catwoman. I don't know if they actually knew my name XD. There was also this other guy, who was a friend of Nia's, who came with us. Collin was pretty cool, he liked my hats :D. A bunch of us talked out in the halls until midnight when Kayleigh kicked him off of our floor. Oh well. Overall, I guess it was a pretty good night.

Mute Prologue pg 1

2008-01-31T10:01:00.001-08:00

Well, I went ahead and got started on Mute. I'm not going to post it on smackjeeves until I have at least three pages and a cover and a website layout. So it'll prolly be another week or two (or this weekend, since no one will be here.)

This page took a while. I had so many layers I got confused, and then after that, I decided I didn't like it and wanted to move everything around, which was layer orangization hell. I had to have had like twenty layers, and very few of them named. It was bad. That is the main reason this took me longer than it normally would have. The revision was just moving the boxes around and making the top of her head show as opposed to her neck. I also messed with the bubbles and words. Small things, that took forever, but were totally worth it because this page looks so much better. It still has a few things that I could really work on, but oh well. Maybe sometime in the future, but sure as hell not now :P

Seth

2008-01-28T17:57:00.000-08:00

Been scribbling again. Here's Seth from Mute. I think he's kinda cute, but I had trouble with the mouth and now that I look at it in a smaller size, his cheek bone looks kinda weird, but oh well.

pen tool wonders

2008-01-27T17:11:00.001-08:00

Well, it was mentioned to me to try inking with the pen tool in photoshop, so I gave it a go and i think it turned out well. I found it also helps with cell coloring :D I'm pretty happy with them, and they don't take nearly as long as the other way. I can't believe I hadn't be thinking of this before.

Mute - story concepts

2008-01-23T13:12:00.000-08:00

story idea

The Earth falls around the Moon, but when a war on the Moon breaks out, an explosion rocks the Moon so hard it comes crashing down to Earth - obliterating the planet. Humans are now a dying species, living as nomads on run-down Ships, and held together by weak law and government. In hopes of reforming their world, people have returned to the ruins of Earth to bring back whatever samples of DNA they can salvage. Seth on his search, stumbles onto a mostly intact research facility. He enters it and finds that most of the people are dead, and those who aren't have been horribly mutated by the radiation from the impact and being exposed to the sun without an atomosphere to protect them. There is one girl, however, still human, at least mostly.

Ria helps keep him safe and from the mutants (or mutes as she calls them). She is his age and has been in the lab since the destruction of Earth nine years ago. Her parents had put her in a protected part of the lab to keep her from mutating, not only for her sake, but because she held the secret to saving the human race in her DNA.

After escaping the research facility, Ria is looked at by the doctors and labeled a threat to humanity. The mutants in the lab transfered their DNA through touch, and Ria had contact with the mutes. She, however, had not mutated much at all. The thing holding back her mutant DNA is her machine DNA. At the research facility she had been programmed with the knowledge of where the closest habitiable planet is and it's occupants. Her warring DNA, though, promises a short life.

They find this out with the help of Newton, Seth's best friend. He is a scientist and looked at Ria upon Seth's request. However, they did not know the concequences. Since the mutant DNA is passed through touch, both Newton and Seth have also been infected. Newton must find a cure before it's too late for them. Ria, Newton, and Seth have all been labeled threats to humanity and are on the run.

They discover the secret to Ria's machine DNA - she can pull up the star maps to the closest habitiable planet at will, and they appear on her skin.

Ria, humanity's biggest threat, is also their only hope.

Characters

Ria
Age: 18
Personality: very shy and timid, everything is new to her and sometimes she acts like a child. She is curious about everything.
Specialities: hiding

Seth
Age: 21
Personality: very outgoing and easily excited. Loud, sometimes obnoxious.
Occupation: previously was the expedition leader of the Earth Salvaging.
Speciality: Mechanics for ships and gadgets

Newton
Age: 21
Personality: reserved, keeps to self, always working on something new
Occupation: previously was the leader for the Reconstructing Life project.
Speciality: Science of all kinds

Bye Bye Fishy

2008-01-21T20:43:00.000-08:00

Well, I've been moping lately, goomba died last weekend, so I've been putting off posting. I feel so bad. He hadn't been acting well since we got back from break. Mom thinks it might be that he was in the cold car too long (Nicole's car broke down and we were stranded for hours). It's really lonely without him. I need to tell Eric, but I really don't want to. I don't know if I'll be getting another one.

Poor Fishy.

gaara glares at you!

2008-01-18T16:56:00.000-08:00

I finally finished! It has issues, but it took too long and I just wanted to finish it, so I wasn't going to fix them. I kinda like it, kinda don't. I dunno. I like his demon eye. The hair was a bitch and I dunno how much I like it, but hey, I'll know better for next time. I'm glad to be done with it. I think I'm going to do an elf or something next time. Something with more of a body to it. I try to keep getting things harder with each picture. Kevin wants me to do an elf or fairy so that he can make it into a magic card. I think I will, cause if I can get some watchers from his magic site, that'd be really sweet. We'll see.

He's glaring and bald!

2008-01-16T19:13:00.000-08:00

Well, he's bald O_o Only hair and background left. I now get to try out that hair tutorial, though! That's the whole reason I drew this in the first place and many many many hours later, I finally get to work on it, yay! I also forgot the buckle on his outfit, lets see if I eventually remember . . .

he now stares at you WITH eyes!

2008-01-16T16:31:00.000-08:00

still scribbling away . . .

He's glaring with no eyes o_O

2008-01-16T10:50:00.000-08:00

well, I finally started on my gaara pic I've been meaning to do for ever. I hope it looks better in the end . . . I really want to do his eyes, but I know I don't have time before my next class, so I'm posting now! I do have homework, but what can I say? I am the master of procrastination!

So I've been to all of my classes and so far so good :D. My animation class last night was really fun, actually, and my creative writing class has potentional. The movie-editing class was kinda intimidating with all of the stuff that I didn't know how to work O_o. But the animation class, I caught on to after effects pretty well, I think. We're also going to be learning photoshop, so hopefully that'll be easy for me considering I know a lot about it.

So I guess I'll read my homework. I really want to finish this picture of him so that I can go ahead and try out this new hair tutorial. Oh well.

Aliens, Zombies, and Philosophy

2008-01-14T12:42:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm back at school. Now I'm sharing a room with Jessica :D. It took me a while to get everything situated because last night Nicole's car overheated and we had some issues and I got here a lot later than I had planned. So I more-or-less finished unpacking today.

Over the weekend we got a cat! It was a stray and it walked us home from lil' Rizzo's (which was kinda weird). Ashley named it Frisky and Ta got really attached really quick. It's a cool cat, even Dad likes it and that says a lot :D. So we took him home. He's staying outside, though, Badger's not happy about it as is. So we finally get a cat and I'm not home to play with him T_T. Oh well, life goes on.

Got my books this morning - I have an ungodly amount of books for my sci-fi and fantasy literature class. I've gotta start now if I don't wanna fall behind - I don't think I can read all of Blue Mars in one week like he wants >_< I'm a fast reader, but I do have a life. Who woulda thunk it, huh?

My substitute teacher for that class is hot >_< I wish he wasn't a sub. He's a grad student doing his thesis on zombies and aliens in pop culture O_O. He's pretty cool. My other teacher for philosophy I can't seem to place, he's really monotone, down to business type guy, but he cursed twice, was really blunt, and even made a few jokes (if you were listening). We'll see how that works out. He's only got three tests this year O_o so I have to do good on those tests.

I haven't even gotten to draw since the last post, and I might start going into withdrawls. Been too busy, it's crazy. I've gotta lot to read tonight, though, so I prolly won't tonight, either. I'm going to try to workout and we're going to walmart and then petsmart for fat goldfish! I also need to pick up mountain dew, we're all out . . .

I have been granted!

2008-01-11T20:19:00.000-08:00

Well, there I was, trying on my new ski pants of awesomeness when my mommy yelled that I got mail from the Academy of Art. Racing into the kitchen, grabbing the envolope and ripping the contents open, I began to jump up and down upon seeing the first word, "Congratulations!"

I got a scholarship from the Acadmy of Art! It's a portfolio grant, so it's based on the stuff that I turned in. :D I'm really really happy because it was based on my actual art and not my grades or anything and I always considered myself more of a mediocre art student than an exceptional one, my biggest boost always seemed to be my grades and not my art (until high school fucked me over, but I've ranted enough about that). It'll cover 75% of my tuition this summer! Yeah, I'm taking online courses this summer, but hey, I do wanna graduate in three years there.

Well, I really wanna draw, I just wanted to tell everyone that I got a scholarship, which makes me really really happy! Go me! hehe

I survived!

2008-01-09T15:27:00.000-08:00

I made it back from the ski trip in one piece! Quite the accomplishment, if I do say so myself. No life-threatening accidents this year. I didn't get stuck in one tree well, run into any trees, or even fall off any cliffs. Yeah, good year. We even had powder on two days.

This year was different, though. It was unusual skiing with more than just my dad. I mainly skiied with Hwak, Phil, Neal, and my dad. My dad got frustrated when the guys couldn't keep up. Hwak was pretty amazing at skiing (it was his first time on real snow!). Phil's form wasn't as good as mine, but those guys had way more strength than me. Mom called me a failure to my gender T_T.

My roommates were pretty cool, a little crazy, but cool. They were all juniors or older, so yeah, I'll prolly never really see them again -_-. When we went out with them and my friends I met, though, my dad took to paying for them, I think after he bought them some beers, they liked him better than me! haha, though, they did catch on pretty quick that Neal's a pervert.

I might write more later, but right now I'm dying to draw. I didn't bring my computer or sketchbook on the trip and was starting to go into withdrawls, so I'm havaing a hard time concentraiting on this post. Later, then.

On 2008 . . .

2008-01-01T11:41:00.000-08:00

Well, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I can't believe it's been a year already. It's totally ridiculous. I'm in college - have been for a semester. I only have one more semester to go before I head out to San Fran, and I only have three and a half years of college before I actually am done being a student. How crazy is that?

I had to sort my art files today, it was actually really sad putting all my 2007 files away, but it was also kinda nice to be starting anew :D. Last year I had more art on my computer than ever before. 2007 was the first year I really started to take drawing on the computer seriously. I did it before, but not nearly to the extent that I do now. I must say that I love it :D. I have a whole file full of jpg images I've done on the comp and many more unfinished in my wip folder. And then I have a bunch of scanned in images and many I didn't scan in. It was a shock to see how much I did. It was over twice as much as 2006, and now hopefully 2008's folder will be twice the size of 2007's ^_-.

Have to get ready to go on the ski trip today. I leave tomarrow - not sure when >_< bad me. I have to pack - a lot. Also have to sew up my torn skii pants. I saw some really cool checkerboard ones at sports authority I wanted, but the set (cause I'd have to get the jacket, too, because mine wouldn't match - and also needs sewn up) cost about $130, I wasn't going to make mom pay that when I could just sew up my old ones. I've had the same set for years, it has served me well :D. I'm putting off packing right now, actually . . . I'm so lazy. I'm sure I'll be up all night packing.

Last night we had a party (of course) and it was pretty fun. A bunch of my friends showed up and we chilled. Dad showed off that picture I drew for him all night long >_<. I'm glad that he likes it, though. It really means a lot to me that he likes it that much. Others kept telling me how proud he was of me all night, too. Granted, half of them were drunk, but still.

We also went swimming - it was so cold! The water that splashed out of the pool onto the concrete actually froze. We had to be careful coming in and out of the pool. The pool was nice, though, stuck right at about 90 degrees. That pool heater was working overtime.

I almost wish I wasn't leaving toamrrow, but I can't wait at the same time. I have been having troubles drawing full bodied poses, so I went through my how to draw anime and game characters series I got when I was in middle school (it was all I had at home), and I realized how much I can still learn from these books. Like expressions aren't my best, and I have a whole book on that! Along with natural poses and fight scenes. i have no idea why I put them away - alright, so I do, it was becasue they were anime. stupid me, the books are just done in anime, there's still much I can learn for my own style. I want to work on that sometime :D I'm sure I will at least after I get back.

I felt like such a cheepskate when it came to gifts this year, and really, I was. I didn't know what to get everyone. I got ang, eric, and KC peppermint bark that I thought sounded really good. Ang got me a zim shirt (that looks like galaga) and then a bottle of body lotion with sparkles (so angela), and KC got me gir slippers. >_< I feel so cheep, even though the pepermint bark was $10 each. Oh well.

I borrowed civil war from sean, I'm debating reading it on the bus tomarrow . . . don't know if I want to be demoted to loser status right away haha. Well, on that note, I'm going to go back to reading a fanfic before I pack.

Happy New Year! Cross your fingers and don't hope for the best, make it happen!

exp003 - mourning

2007-12-30T10:36:00.000-08:00

I drew this picutre because I was sad about Diablo. It kept my mind off of him while expressing my feelings.

I looked back at my old pictures of exp003 and saw that she was not only younger, but had big veins running through her face. I think I'm going to draw those veins in, I like her older.

Adios, El Diablo

2007-12-30T10:27:00.000-08:00

I've been putting this off because I know I'll cry, but I have to dedicate a post anyways.

Diablo died yesterday morning. He was an old hamster that live a long life of three years. He kept me company while I was home and I always looked forward to meeting him on the weekends away from school. He stayed with me through two years of high school and through a semester of college. He lived a long happy life of escapes, searches, wheel running, digging, opening his cage door, the top lid, and hiding in any dark spot he could find.

We believe that he died of a mixture of old age and a growth on the side of his face. His eyes would mat shut and we had to use some water to help him open them. I hope that Diablo is happier where he is now than in the pain he was most likely in here.

I love you, and I miss you, buddy.

realism . .. maybe

2007-12-28T21:21:00.000-08:00

weeeell, I finished :D, or as close to finished as I'm going to get because I'm just too lazy to work on it anymore. She looks like a dyke. Short hair is not for everyone apparently. I'm frustraited with the hair and it's too small to work with and so on and so forth. So I'm going to call this one quits and start a new one. I'm thinking a fairy.

tablet fun!

2007-12-28T03:06:00.000-08:00

woo! I've been drawing so much with my tablet lately. Is tarted last night I have barely stopped. Pressure sensitivity and tilt sensitivity, and pure amazingness are awesome aspects of my new tablet! The pressure sensitivity lets me get thin, delicate lines I couldn't get before (like manga) and a lot of line variation, and pretty wooshies, and so on and so forth. I've also managed my first half way successful realistic picture. So I wanted to post it :D Still have to do the hair and background, but that's for tomarrow.

anyways, it's like 3 AM and I have to go out with eric tomarrow, so I'm off to bed.

christmas aftermath

2007-12-26T18:43:00.000-08:00

w000! Christmas was fun :D I love going down to grandmas. We really did nothing but talk, but we all had a good time and I wish I coulda stayed longer. Grandma made nighty night cookies and blackberry cobbler and pumpkin pie - all of my favorites! I haven't been so full in lord knows how long.

This Christmas I really raked in. My mom was messing with me this year, though. Said she didn't buy me a tablet and that I would have to buy my own, and sure enough, under that tree was a new tablet :D. An Intuos Wacom 3, 9x12 inches with DRIVERS THAT WORK god forbid :D. So that pretty much already made my Christmas, but on top of that, Mom bought me this coat that I wanted. She bought it right in front of me, too, said she was going to give it to my cousin, Shannon. Found out on Christmas that she was in on it with my aunt and they had bought it right under my nose. "Hey, try this on, because if it fits you, it'll definatally fit Shannon" yeah, I'll never fall for that again XD. I also got the new Dean Koontz book, the Darkest Evening of the Year, a mythology book, John Howe's fantasy art book, and another jacket. Then I went to my grandma's and from my aunt got a jacket I picked out, and super mario galaxy for the wii. Also, from my sisters I got a bottle of perfume - dream angels by victorias secret, and a jacket. I dunno if you can tell, but I have a thing for jackets - got five this year!

I can't wait to set up my drivers for my tablet and get to work using it! Eeep, I wanna draw with it so bad. I also have to do this eye tutorial from gnomon on maya. Won't get that done today. >_<.

Well, it's time to load my drivers for my tablet :D w00!

Secret Drawing Santa

2007-12-25T00:48:00.000-08:00

Well, its Christmas Eve and I'm online posting on a blog. Wow, I feel like a loser hehe. I wanted to post last night, but I was running in circles trying to finish ninjies' secret santa gift. I'm a horrible person and fell way way behind. -_- I wanted to draw her something cool, and I started on it, but as I got into it, I realized that I needed to have started it way before last night XD. So I drew something else and stayed up til 5 am to get it done. I'm glad I did, though, I had no time at all today to do anything. I woke up, cleaned, went to grandma's, opened family gifts, and now its 11:30. The day flew by.

Ninjies is a creepy person so I wanted to draw her a somewhat creepy picture, but I'm not very good at that kinda stuff (my friends gave me a negative number on the creepy scale), I knew I wanted to draw something with teeth, because her character takes pictures of teeth . . . This is what I started drawing in painter:

and this is what I ended up giving her:

I kinda like it . . . I'm not very big on my shading in the face, but I got really tired last night and began to rush through it. If you see it without the coloring, you can see the lineart looks awful. >_<>

Ninjies figured me, out, though >_<. She must have recognized my art style from posting my pictures on the sj forums to ask for help and critics.

I got a gift, too! I don't know who it's from, I don't recognize the style, but I really like it. It's of The Silenced from City of the Silent, which I really need to go back to . . . I am very upset with myself for dropping that like I did. I meant only to miss one or two weeks, but now I've nearly stopped it completely. I quit because I was having trouble with the first page >_<>

Here's my gift picture - I think this is the first time I've ever gotten someone else to draw my characters - isn't it awesome? I really love the picture :D

After all this, though, I got worried that all my close-up face pictures look all the same . . . they're all facing the same way, they're all girls, they all are shaded the same, and they're all similar in facial features . . . I got worried enough to put them next to each other.

I see a lot of similarities, and it kinda worries me. I need to branch out and work on some variety . . . that's my goal for my new pictures. Variety . . . yeah, lets see how that goes XD Cross your fingers.

I've been trying to do different stuff lately . . . I wanted to try drawing someone really realistic for the 100 themes, but I dunno, the sj people bashed it pretty good and I dunno if I'm going to pick it back up again, cause quite frankly, the girl freaks me out. The idea was to have her really happy looking and a bright yellow background (I used purple in the shadows) with the words "Life, it's worth smiling about". I wanted to make it a statement to the really depressed-acting, emo people out there (like my friend Kevin) just to say it's not so bad. People are such downers, especially when it comes to art. Everyone draws meaningful death stuff, but it's hard to find someone drawing happy live-life types of pictures now. Or rather, it's not hard to find, it's just much more rare, I should say.

I might start over, but here's what I've got:

It was based on a reference picture from a free stock photo page.

I wanted to start on my comic 19 crazies and me, but I didn't get very far. I named Chris' roommate Zachary (thanks to Brad). I drew it in my sketchbook, which it has been really nice drawing in my sketchbook because I've been limited to drawing on my computer without my scanner and all (although, now that I'm home I haven't used my scanner at all. I'm so lazy >_<). I drew ninjies gift in my sketchbook because it was faster and then took a picture of it for the lineart (which was horribly sloppy). So I drew some basic sketches of Zachary freaking out about the lights and it made me giggle. I also drew the beginning where Chris is drugged out of his mind thanks to the nice men in the white coats. I've never been so happy that my little sisters said that one of my characters looked drugged before . . . The style's different than my other works, but I like it, I think it's fun :D City of the Silent can have the pretty art, I'll keep 19 crazies and me with the cartoon style (based a little bit offa johny the homicidal maniac - loosely)

Yay for sketches :D.

I've been really into fantasy lately. I want to pick up the golden compass. I finished the final Harry Potter (once again, I was behind) and started reading fanfics. I also started getting into some Harry Potter/Stargate crossovers, though I have yet to find a good one. I picked back up some of the ones that I used to read, but they aren't as good as I remember them being . . . and now, I'm sure everyone coulda guessed, I want to make a fanfic. I tell you, I have issues, I keep wanted to do stuff and so I never get anything done! I haven't written a fanfic in a really really long time, and suddenly, I want to pick them back up. Urg. I was like that with webcomics, too, though, I swear I won't abandon those. I really need to just sit down and get to work. I wish I were back in school, I work so much better there.

I'm really looking forward to next semester - it should be a blast! I get to move in with Jessica (which should be fun, and very interesting), and then I get to be right across the hall from my other two friends, and we're getting new pet goldfish! The funny fat ones. My classes should be fun, t00, though I didn't get into a drawing class like I wanted (which I am a little frustrated about, but life should go on), then I get Creative Writing: Short Story, Science Fiction and Fantasy literature, The Movie Making class, Philosophy, and of course, Computer animation. What more could I ask for? I might also take an online course - art history probably. It doesn't look like I'll be getting a scholarship, unfortunatally. Oh well, I tried. I might email my adviser back and say "hey, what's going on? haven't heard back from you".

I hope I meet some new people, but at the same time, I don't becasue I don't want it too be too painful to leave, and it already looks like it's gonna be rough. But then, again, I thought it'd be really rough going to college and it really wasn't. I didn't get homesick and I really don't miss anyone (as horrible as that sounds). Though, now that I'm back in town, I've hung out with Angela, Sean, and Max a lot. Max is really cute and nice, I see why KC likes him so much. I haven't seen KC at all, though. I'm still kinda peeved about Halloween . . . does that make me shallow? I came into town just to see her and we barely hang out - she hangs out with her friends and me when we went to the haunted house and then the next day we went to get our eyebrows waxed . . . and that was it. She also hasn't called me or anything. I called her a couple of times, and she never called me, so I just stopped. Maybe I'm being petty, but it's kinda frustrating when she's all "I miss you so much!" but acts like she really doesn't wanna see me. Whatever. I'm not gonna say anything else.

I hear mom and dad down stairs wrapping presents >_<. Must not let them know I"m awake.

Ang and I made a whole shit-load of cookies. She has this really cook cookie press which makes all these nifty shapes. We made life a freaking 30 dozen cookies. More than I can eat, for sure! I'm having everyone overy for new years, we'll go swimming in the pool. We're heating it! I really look forward to that. I need to give everyone their presents then, speaking of which, I still need to work on Eric's. I'm such a lazy bum :X. I'm going to buy everyone their presents after Christmas so it's less crowded and cheeper. Shh! they never need to know.

We also went and got our hair cut and our eyebrows waxed. The lady went a little overboard and waxed off the skin. I didn't notice it until later. It's now scabbed over and it looks like I've been in a fight. But the official story, because the real one sounds really stupid, is that I was saving a puppy. That sounds better, right?

Tomarrow I get to go to Grandma Pie's, which should be pretty damn awesome. That side of the family is always so much fun to be around. I miss them. I hope grandma made blackberry cobbler! That would be amazing. I think Aunt Carolyn and all are coming to Christmas, too, which will be fun. I'm really looking forward to it.

Oh, tonight was the first Christmas Eve that we've had warm food at! Well, at least within the last five years. Uncle Joey called my dad and said he was sick of coldcuts for Christmas and that he wanted warm food so they went ahead and uncle joey made a keesh thing and a salad, and dad made a pork loin. It was very possibly the best Christmas Eve dinner i've ever had. I'm surprised Grandma didn't get offended - though she did comment about the extra food. I'm sure she wasn't happy.

She got offended later in the night with my dad talking about Joyce Meyers and Muslums and so on. He basically offended her religion by saying that if he had to choose between joyce meyers and the muslums, he'd be with the muslums. Can't go to a family gathering on my dad's side without someone getting offended! That just wouldn't be my family (the other side is the complete opposite of this one, it's amazing to see the differences)

Poor Diablo isn't doing so well. His eye is matted shut again and he seems to have food constantly in his right cheek. I keep saying it's food, but the thing is, if it iwas food, he woulda taken it outta his cheeks by now. I really hope it's not a tumor and that he's okay. He hasn't been moving around a whole lot, but he has been moving, which is a good sign. He doesn't fit through the tunnel to go to the top of the cage anymore XD He's gotten so fat. He makes me giggle. I really hope that he's okay. I'll be really really upset if he dies. I love that hamster. He's really old for a hamster, though, at least two, maybe almost three, years old . . . may the force be with him.

Well, anyways, I'm going to go to bed. It's really late and tomarrow's gonna come early. (I know my sisters are going to wake me up in order to unwrap Christmas presents). So Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Good Night.

heh heh oops

2007-12-18T11:49:00.000-08:00

well, I know I said that I'd post my story ideas and all the other day and I totally didn't . . . but I have an excuse! I've been watching the korean drama "The First Shop of Coffee Prince" (http://www.mysoju.com/) and it's addicting! . . . Okay, lame excuse. Hows about, I finally got over my artist's block and have been drawing the first page of "19 Crazies and Me". That's better right? I was talking to Brad last night and he named Chris's (my main character), roommate Zachary. In the first page he's freaking out about the lights >_<. Here's the picture I drew of Chris.

I don't have the pictures of Zachary up yet because I've been drawing them by hand because they go so much quicker (we'll see if it's really that much quicker when I have to scan them in), but really, drawing by hand is much easier . . . all of my stuff that's been computer colored has been drawn on the comp, which I've found is much more difficult.

My internet has been slugging away . . . it's very sad. I just realized, I signed up for the secret santa thing on SJ and don't really have a nice running comic for them to make a guest comic for or anything . . . ooops. I kinda feel bad for whosever gotten me, cause I'm thinking of taking those down and just doing the 19 crazies and me.

I also have to do a picture for my secret santa . . . so I have to read her comic first >_<. I also have to work on Eric's present and finish watching the coffee prince! I'm almost done with the series :D. So no story ideas for now, maybe later.

Ranting Away

2007-12-14T22:51:00.000-08:00

uuuuuugh! I cannot for the life of me draw tonight (or last night) and it's killing me! I want to draw, but everything I do draw comes out distorted and missproportional! It's awful.

Not to mention I'm not on my own computer right now becasue it can't connect to the internet, so I can't watch any movies or anything and this one that I'm on (the home desktop) is really old and shitty and it's sound is messed up on it. I dunno why my laptop can't configure the internet. Gah I'm frustrated. All I want to do is draw and I can't. I just got home and I'm stressed becasue I'm having issues sleeping at night and I can't connect to the internet, this desktop can't even keep up with my typing - I mean, I know I type fast, but I don't type that fast. I must say that I do like the rocking chair I get to lean in and that I get to type in my lap and have the mouse on the handle, while the screen is in front of me. It's pretty comfy, though, sometimes I can't read the writing because it's too small.

Anyways, I got As in all of my classes :D isn't that excitng? Brad made fun of me for being so happy about my grades, but you know, he's not even in college, so fuck him. Ugh, I don't know why I'm in such a bad mood. I should just go to bed. Like now.

I hung out with Eric today and fell asleep watching the Bourne Ultimatum with my family, oops. The dog came and licked me, though. I woke up to my dog kissing me on the lips - blagh!

I must say, though, that I'm glad finals are over. It's nice to be able to relax, I only wish that I could draw . . . I really want to, but everyone I draw is out of proportion and hideous and I cna't get it to looks right. It's killing me. I'm gonna try again in the morning, I think. Finals week was really stressful, I can't believe that I pulled off a 4.0 :D It was a nice surprise. I do believe that the main reason that I survived my astronomy test, though, was becasue I had the galaxy song stuck in my head! I'm goign to post that on the side bar, just for fun.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDkyR_rGrqU

Brad's texting me and won't leave me alone - mike, too for that matter. I'm so grumpy right now, it's not a good time to be texting me! Urg!

Oh yeah, I think I'm going to ask someone on smackjeeves to help me out with making a comic becasue I really want to make a good one and I want to continue doing it, but I need someone to help me with ideas and coloring and lineart maybe, I dunno. It'd be nice to have a prtner. I don't want someone who's going to only write and me only color or me only write and them only color. I want it to be more of a group effort and that way I'll keep going.

I've recently gotten the story idea for Wingwalker back in my head . . it sounds interesting. I'm thinking instead of making her a mutant from the start having her fall from the plane into the water and then one of the mutuants biting her to save her life. A mutant's bite will turn you into them, but but all the way. And so on and so forth. I think I'm going to type all my ideas in my blog sometime tomarrwo. Right now, there is no creative mind with me. I'm so outta it and tired and just blagh. I also need to write them down for a post if I want to do a sj partner thing. I hope someone wants to partner with me! *crosses fingers*

well, I have to go to bed before I bite someone's head off. I can't relieve my frustrations with drwiang, either, it makes things difficult. Oh well, what can you do?

Unitl next time.

procrastination will kill you

2007-12-09T22:28:00.000-08:00

right now, as always, I'm procrastinating from studying . . . yeah, something needs to be done about my laziness . . . tomarrow's a big study day. I only need to get a C on my psych test to get my A and a D on my Astronomy test to get a B, and those are the only really important classes, so I've been sluffing off. I know it's bad, but what can I say? I've been downloading stock photos like none other :D

I want to do this 100 themes challenge, it really sounds fun.

rules:

1. Credit the author of the list, place the list in your journal and let us know you are doing the challenge. You can find the list author at the bottom of our variation lists.

2. Works can be completed in any medium, including poetry and prose.

3. Must have only one theme per piece. Do not use one piece for more than one theme. Do the themes listed below.

4. Put a link to the piece once you have finished a theme and update the list as often as possible.

5. To be listed as taking the challenge you must be doing the whole list not just a few themes.6. No time limit on completing the list so take as long or a little time as you want with completing the list.

7. Most of all have fun this is mean to help get rid of artist block and help us become better artist.

8. To be listed in our Hall of Fame, note us with a link to your journal list completed and you will be added.

themes variation 4:

1. Life

2. Youth

3. Content

4. Change

5. Dreams

6. Pessimistic

7. Pirate

8. Novel

9. Doom

10. Garden

11. Sadness

12. Confusion

13. Freedom

14. Inevitable

15. Idle

16. Vampires

17. Convention

18. Roleplaying

19. Skull

20. Pain

21. Joy

22. Time

23. Warmth

24. Voodoo

25. Insomnia

26. Solitude

27. Zombies

28. Heaven

29. Evil

30. Weary

31. Candyland

32. Robot

33. Old-school

34. Puppets

35. Flight

36. Movie

37. What if...

38. Batman

39. Dance

40. O RLY???

41. Play

42. Uh-oh...

43. Duel

44. Sound Effect

45. Caption

46. Photo

47. Pants

48. Red

49. Fiesta

50. Percent

51. Soap Opera

52. Underwear

53. Stress

54. Froof

55. Mutation

56. Skeleton

57. Rock

58. Lies

59. Ninja

60. Message

61. Bugs

62. Effort

63. Bandaid

64. WRYYYY

65. Imaginary

66. Fly Me to the Moon

67. Discovery

68. What?

69. Adhesive

70. Underworld

71. KAWAII DESU

72. Mecha

73. Random

74. Video Game

75. Crisis

76. Insanity

77. Ice

78. Working Hard

79. Hardly Working

80. Sandwich

81. Clone

82. Clumsy

83. Keyboard

84. Hope

85. Song

86. Surprise

87. Cursed

88. Awesomeness

89. Internet

90. Fire

91. Orange

92. Love

93. Annoyance

94. Misunderstanding

95. Fantasia

96. Puppy

97. Lost

98. Pie

99. Fate

100. Death

Oh yeah, I also have to make a present for Eric XD I'm a horrible person and haven't drawn him anything yet. I'll have to start working on something or other - soon.

. . . and here we go again

2007-12-09T12:02:00.000-08:00

Well, last night was a little rough, so I made some emo artXD(bigger version on sheezy or DA) My friends ditched me to go to a party - didn't even ask me. Mike was in my room when they called him, he just left without saying anything. I knew they would go somewhere, but I figured they'd be back soon. After an hour or two, I sent Mike a text asking where they went and he said they were in his room and going to go to a party. He said that they didn't think I would want to go. Well, thanks for even asking. So I sat in my room all night long by myself doing nothing.

I drew this lineart and then had to have something to do with it. so I saw somethings like this on the itnernet and decided to make one. I'm not a huge fan of how it turned out. There are many things I don't like - like the mouth, the scarf, and the chin. I kinda like how I colored the scarf and hat really loosely, though, I might try something else like that later. Maybe color a face loose like that would be nice. I dunno, always looking for new ways to color because I'm so bad at it. I think I want to draw a pretty asian boy ^^, with arm warmers! I really want to draw armwarmers and pretty hair . . . I feel like such a fangirl . . .

I'm also thinking of making a tutorial on how to make good lineart. I know I'm not great, but I found that a lot of people don't do their lineart on the computer and when they do, it tends to be just darkening pencil sketches. I also it'd be cool to share how I do it. Also, it may get my name out on drunkduck, which would be nice, but I have to have a comic first. I think I'm going to make that comic "19 crazies and me" and get at least five pages before I start posting, and post it on both drunkduck and smackjeeves and then maybe sign up for onlinecomics.net.

I also wanted to make a myspace where I could share my stuff, but we'll see how that goes. Myspace doesn't really like me. I know that I need to start posting and talking more on Sheezy and DA so that I can get out there more. I need more viewers! I know it's conceded, but I really want people to look at my stuff and that way more people will look at my comics, ect. and lord only knows what a fan-base could do.

But before all that, comes finals. Ugh, I already took two. I think I did really well on my theatre final. For art we just got our portfolios back and I got an A in art! She even took one of my pictures to put in the foundations show, which is pretty exciting :D. She said at midterm that I was between an A and a B, but she could tell that I worked hard and that my stuff really improved, so that was pretty awesome :D.

I have two more on Wednesday (astronomy and psychology) which I have to start studying for today and then I also have public speaking on Thursday which really sucks because we have to write a paper for it and then go take a test. I get to compare my first two speeches. At least she told us what to write and that it only had to be a page or two. I also can't forget to bring in that orange paper! I know i prolly will . . . just knowing me. I really don't like my public speaking teacher, she's a grad student and thinks she's all that and a bag of chips (heh, cliche useage). She grades really hard and smiles (even when she's angry which is creepy, btw). But she looks like a Who and has that underlining air of "holier than thou" and she just gets under my skin.

I'm ready to go home, though. Finals are stressing me out. I also want new classes . . . I'm starting to get sick of the ones that I have right now. I like psych and ast and art, but I'd like to start learning other things, too. Next semester should be fun with creative writing: short story, a movie-making class, science fiction and fantasy literature, computer animation 1 (yay!), and then philosophy might even be fun. And depending on weather or not I get a scholarship from AAU I might be taking art history online, which isn't fun, but needs to be done. I don't think I'm going to take short story online, though, I might wait and either take it at AAU or online through them.

I can't wait to go to art school, I am so looking forward to it. I mean, hell, art all the time, what more could you ask for? My dad is still freaking out that I won't come back, but I will - can't get rid of me that easily. :D We're goign to skiing together soon, I'm going through school and he's going on his own and we'll meet up. It should be fun, apparently Steamboat has a lot of snow right now! We're leaving on the second. I need to ask my mom what she wants me to do about parking and all . . . if she's going to drive me or if I need to get a parking permit.

I want to make a poster for next semester which says "hard-work beats talkent when talent doesn't work hard" because I need to remember that. I'm not overly talented, so I need to work hard to do what I really want to do for the rest of my life. Nothing can stop me as far as I'm concerned. I have an idea what I want to do and I'm goign for it. My main reason for going to art school is because I want to be the best I can be. I know I'm lazy, and I'm not always motivated, but I want to be happy doing what I love for the rest of my life and I know that if I don't get working, that it won't happen. I might make my poster by hand because making it on the computer and then printing it would cost like sixty bucks. So not cheep.

I also might dig out my old scanner at home . . . and if I can find them, the drivers. I really want to be able to scan the stuff I do by hand because I suck at taking pictures and that's all I can really do right now. It's small enough that it should fit on my desk, too (so long as I move my shit around hehe, my desk is a clutter fuck).

I'm moving into Jessica's room next semester, I'm kinda worried about how that's going to go. Me and her are very different and we'll both almost always be in there which might get on my nerves because I'm such a private person. I hope our scheduals are all at different times. I knwo tha's mean, but what can I say? I also am going to try and get a night job on mondays, wednesdays, and sundays. My friends will never see me haha. I really could use a job, though. I'm goign to apply tomarrow. It's telemarketing, so I might be good at it after my experience as a receptionist - haha.

Well, anyways, I've procrastinated really too long, I have to start studying.

bai bai.

gasp drawing for fun??? wtf is that?

2007-12-07T16:00:00.000-08:00

I finally got to draw by hand for fun because my art class is over! So I did the female samurai on and off for a couple hours. It won't be posted anywhere else until I get a scan of it, The picture is really crappy because a. I take shitty pictures, and b. the camera is shitty. :P I tried to fix it up in photoshop, but it's still a mess from a bad picture take.

currently in my world . . .

2007-12-07T15:30:00.001-08:00

Alright, well, I had a blog on http://www.xanga.com/, but I abandoned it because it had my emo years in it, and I'd like to leave those behind.

Currently, I'm having fun at college, finals start tomarrow, I'm really doing this in an attempt to avoid studying (and it's working very well) My test tomarrow is theatre, and I can't tell you how much I hate that class, it drives me a up a wall. It's so boring and in my opinion, stupid. I thought that it'd be a fun class, but let me tell you, theatre 101 sucks. Hopefully the test won't be hard. I'm not very worried becasue I have over a 100% in the class. The other classes that I'm more worried about are psych and astronomy (wich is suprisingly difficult).

I'm ready for next semester, though, I'm sick of the classes that I am currently in. I'm ready for new ones. I'm horribly sick of theatre and public speaking, mainly.

I'm spacing and don' tknow what I'm trying to say now, so I'm gonna leave this be before I sound like an idiot.

In the beginning . . .

2007-12-07T14:42:00.000-08:00

there was toast . . .

well, I figured I'm in college and I prolly want to try to get my name out there as much as possible, so I thought I'd start a blog. I want to be able to post what's going on and how I'm doing stuff and all . . . don't wanna forget it later. I'll post some pictures I've drawn, talk about what's goign on, ect. So lets put everything together . . .